Re: Denial

[Anonymous]

Hey everyone

New to both this web page and ADD so be gentle!! Have been on the medication since about this time last year.

I too struggle with the diagnosis as it almost feels like the “easy way out” or “excuses everything”.

Being an amateur athlete, stress head and idealist predisposes me to being reactive to subtle changes in my diet, medication or surrounding personal and business environment. I take vyvanse after being on Aderral XR and find my BP is borderline high 150/90 but 125/75 in the morning before and at night.

On top of all of this my year has taken me through a traumatic divorce, assault and being left as a single parent to my 3 year old son. I suppose you might as well get all of the change done in one go!

Last week and for the first time since taking this combination of medication I was able to whole heartedly work a week. After many years of sales and all that comes with this I was left with no interest to go back and have struggled with the purpose and what I wanted to do with my life.

I noticed that during this period of work (7am to 12pm hard stressful work) my blood pressure was lower than being sat at home on my own and with some brilliant counselling from the few friends I have feel I am starting to make progress. I am ADD, I have embraced the massive negatives and also the huge positives and for the first time a glowing report of me at work was given.

“On 29-Jun-10, at 9:11 PM, R wrote:”

“So glad you could make it Lee – you were indispensible. I can’t thank you enough for all that you have contributed to the film and I know Rick feels the same way.

Robyn xo”

“Thanks Robyn and after the year I have had your comments mean a huge amount.”

“Awe… you’re awesome babe.. so glad you were there! We are going to postpone our wrap event for when we finish the last day and do it in a few weeks.. stay tuned

Xo R”

To finally not have the feeling of frustration and to be needed I think contributed to the BP level and I am learning no medication in the world can eradicate that. Finding the right career choice is pivotal to me and I am sure has been spoken about lots, I just wanted to contribute to this post to say we are given the tools we have as ADD for a reason and don’t stop looking for what is right for you in both medication or counselling but the starting point was my acceptance of who I am and not only the ADD part.

Lee

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