Well, some of that was tough to read but I get what you all are saying. I do agree we have to be ready to change to change but I also know that sometimes being ready to change isn’t the only determining factor that will bring success.
I have been pretty determined lately and have had some success in organizing my classroom…something that had been causing some anxiety as of late. Feels so wonderful to have that taken care of finally! Funny how I can be highly organized at my work place but ridiculously lost at home! Filing is a nightmare for me! Glad to know a reason behind it and that I am not alone!
What I haven’t been successful with is NOT caring what others think of me. I really appreciated the square peg in the round hole analogy as well as your examples Toofat. I have felt odd my whole life but until the past few years (before going through menopause) I was able to function in social situations quite well and didn’t feel this ridiculous “spotlight” effect that I feel these days. It is very annoyingly self-absorbing…if that makes any sense! Not sure if this is ADD or not but it is a constant battle to focus on others and listen while trying to shut up the self-deprecating or just plain random thoughts that bounce around!
I love the way you all can laugh at yourselves…I know it will just take time and more knowledge for me to get there again (I am obviously no genie!
. This is all still so knew and with my new job as well (yes, excuses, excuses) I am just trying to focus on that and my family right now. Although I do read quite a few of the forums and the videos when I can which has been very helpful. I have ordered some reading material and have already some on hand for spring break and summer reading…maybe by then I will be “ready to change.”
Very grateful to get to know some other “square pegs!” 