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Andreaaaaaah, I was army. Male, 67, did the whole Vietnam Nam combat thing.
Two of the greatest words that I never heard until 20 years later that I would send you first:
WELCOME HOME !
Being born in 1951, nobody knew what was “wrong” with us, so we had to survive until now with no programs, meds, or anything.
I’ve fought myself, self loathing, depression, and all for a long time, and I don’t use meds.
I can’t say that’s a good thing, but I am so USED to being this way, that the few times I tried meds they gave me I felt so shut down it felt like I wasn’t remembering my name.
I’ve always likened it to a pachinko machine with the balls rattling down carrying whole concepts, not just thoughts, every bleeding time a ball touches a pin! Twenty balls to a drop, 1000 pins. Gets a little noisy.
I am older now, and I find it a hoot to shut the tv off for three or four days at a time, pick up pencil and paper, and see what inventions fall out on the floor. My personal head playground.
I read that we are better at leaps of intuition than flatlanders.
I have had those times when the light comes on and glares on answers for me instantly, yet I can’t argue others into seeing it, because I looked and SAW it, without going through gyrations to prove it first.
Instance:
I was at a lady coworkers home, we were going for a presentation appointment. She is driving. She can’t find her keys.
I was sitting at the dining table, while her three older sons,(11 to 15) are cleaning up the room for her and doing dishes.
The youngest was 2, and teething. He would chew on her keys at times. He worshipped the ground his older brothers walked on, and desperately wanted to be like them.
Back to the room; no car keys. She’s going nuts searching.
I said “Look in the dishwasher.”
She thought I was nuts. She looked. There they are. It’s simple.
Little boy watching his idols put the metal things you put in your mouth for eating in the dishwasher. He has, in his hand, something made of metal that you put in your mouth. “It must go in there!”
Intuition? Non-linear logic? I don’t know. But people with add and adhd are BETTER at it! I call that evolved survival adaptation. You know, Veteran, figure it out before it blows up and kills you.
Oh, and never pass a day without laughing. You have survived a place where people would kill you willingly. Now. You go out there and have not a nice life. Have the BEST!
Harry