Hi prayraynorshine,
Hek, it sounds like you’ve got a good foundation started. The most important thing I’ve been learning lately is that this is indeed a very long journey we’re on. Tools huh?, welp, the tools are scattered all over the place here, and probably a few other places on the net. Mixed in with lot’s of endless talk about self. Basically I need to put down some old tools like selfishness, self centered fear, and of course, my desire for “more”. More friends, more pleasure, more entertainment. etc. Put down the tools our culture has taught you to use in the pursuit of happiness. And find some new ones here.
Spend plenty of time reading here, and of course, reading in your Bible. I’ve explored lot’s of different sources of spirituality. Even a lot of the “New Age”, “all roads lead to the same God” stuff that is really just a result of the most current cultural preference. IMHO. I like to keep my relationship with God good and simple. Of course that includes Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. Most of the books I’ve read on eastern lifestyles like the different Hindu sects, and Buddhist philosophies all seem to be written by folks that have really studied the Bible. I’ve been doing Bible studies, tons! for more than 5 years, and I’m real sure I’ve found a path I can fully commit to finally. All the same good philosophy is there, all I need is my open mind and some honesty. Maybe in 10 or 20 years my life will show some real evidence that I chose the best path for me.
I’ve got ADHD, and my imagination can make the symptoms sometimes worse than they really are. The closer I get to God, the harder satan works at keeping me from staying close to God The Father, Jesus Christ The Son, and The Holy Spirit. The symptoms and other human problems I have along with ADHD are some nasty demons indeed. But God’s way stronger. He works through people who don’t even believe in Him ta boot!. Cool, huh?, His ways are indeed beyond my understanding. He uses even idiots, crazy homeless people, and hypocrites from my church to help me.
I’m realizing even as I write here now this morning, that so much of the new learning tools, and new understanding of how my brain works are making a difference with me gaining a better understanding of the Gospel. That’s why I’m so passionate about that link to the movie about Jesus, above. It’s a fairly accurate movie based very closely on the Gospel of John. It’s very much about Jesus. With me it’s also an ongoing and developing discovery of who I really am as a member of His church. I’m finding much more comfort in my discomfort with the world. I don’t like it here!, never have. I don’t really like people either!, SOME REALLY BORE ME, but I’m becoming more comfortable spending time with them. Even hypocritical Christians!.
The worst kind of people! lol.
It’s okay with me if they lie cheat and steal, it’s just human nature. None of us can ever expect to be perfect. That’s just dumb!.
Lot’s of the tools I find here are perfect for me though… Remember that.
I’m taking real action to make the world a better place lately, thinking about me less, and how to love my brother more. That ain’t easy, but hanging out at this web site is helping tons. I’m not here to convert anyone to Christianity, but this is the ADD and religion thread, so it’s okay to ramble until my heart is content about my love for the Lord here. That could take a while… So feel free to take a break. 
Recently I’ve pretty much started myself right back at the beginning again learning the principles and directions to finding a reasonably happy life here now in my life. I don’t spend any energy trying to secure myself a place in heaven, I trust my own faith. I trust what the Bible says. And I trust the many many other Christians I choose to work and study with. Unfortunately I’m not going to get to know God’s master plan for the universe, my life, or anyone else’s any time soon. I can wait until I die to find out the whole truth about why soooo many people have to suffer and die miserable deaths in places like Darfur, India, South-East Asia, The middle east, (It’s gonna get bad there real soon too, just trust me on that) and right here in my home town. Even right next door to me, one of my best friends in the whole world is slipping away in MS never never land. That just freaking kills me. I haven’t been able to visit her for about 3 weeks!, talk about painful guilt!. Thank God Jesus talks so much about forgiveness. For now it’s enough to know that people suffer as a result of human choices, we do as we please with the freedom God has given us. God can never really know if we love him if he doesn’t give us a choice. There are no guarantees that any of us will get anything special because we love God either, hek man, I’m in extremely bad pain that no medication I’m willing to take can help with. It’s less miserable knowing Jesus really knows how I feel. When I’m sharing my time, and sometimes the gospel with a new friend, it rarely bothers me.
It’s sometimes a bummer when I let it bother me hearing good Christians talk about how they are so “blessed” while I sit there reeling in pain, can’t pay attention, bored, and thinking/feeling like the only compassion in the world is from Jesus. All I do is remember to keep a solid conscious contact with God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit. All 3 work together in ways I’ll never be able to understand, let alone articulate. It’s enough to feel real love and know that when I’m sharing my simple understanding of God to people who are truly interested, ADHD does not bother me. I’ve been trying to find a way to spend as much time as possible helping people. To me success on planet Earth is a matter of having real peace of mind, and never feeling alone. A fast car might be cool, I still get a real kick our of remembering the sound of the engine in my Acura, no radio. The Motor was music. And if you really knew me you’d know that’s saying A LOT!. Going fast is almost as much fun as sharing the gospel. To share it I need to study the Bible. This is where the tools I find here come in handy.
That’s work, fortunately the Bible is huge!, and the more I read it the more interesting it gets. I also love to explore nature, astronomy, physics, and really experience the creativity and imagination that our God is capable of. I love His sense of humor too. It’s a bit quirky, maybe that’s a matter of perspective. I tend to see things very quirkily indeed. It’s a quirky world man!
So far after reading about 60 or 70% of the Bible, I have yet to find any place where it says to stuff the Gospel down anyone’s throat. So that’s why not much of this post tries to prove that how I see things and understand God is correct, or the only way. I just say that I’ve never been as happy and comfortable in my own skin as I am nowadays.
So the tools are really simple, find out how your brain works, and use it!. Sure sounds simple huh?. Sitting in my wheelchair staring at my idiot box is not using it!, fortunately I just recently let that brilliant gem of truth sink into my thick skull. I’ve suspected it for years, but denial sweet denial. Denial allowed me to smoke lot’s of good california weed for years… but that’s another story. And fortunately I found out that was dumb too. Smokin weed is like gasoline on the fire of ADHD.
And that’s all I have to say about that.
7-5-12
This link is to the same movie as above, just a much better quality video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GarRlRp3ts8&feature=related
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