There are things I truly do agree people should expect, then there are things I think would be nice, but not worth kicking myself about right now. So, with some things, I have to admit I can have a bit of an attitude. It can just be soul crushingly difficult to concentrate on improving things that seem a bit trivial and keep apologizing and feeling guilty on a daily basis. If I don’t limit what I’m trying to improve on, the guilt and failure of trying to make other people happy will crush my ability to make any progress at all-or so I fear… I am in a vulnerable spot! I admit I have a bad habit of verbally lashing others for “sweating the small stuff” and/or accusing people of picking on me unfairly. Well, folks, sometimes what I consider “the small stuff” is pretty important to others, and they don’t appreciate my attitude… I understand where they’re coming from, but I feel like I’m between a rock and a hard place. I just hope I can keep from alienating the ones I love – once again… Am I wimping out by trying to take things one step at a time? Should I be trying a lot harder to “suck it up” when people criticize? Hopefully, I just need to keep on the medication/re-tooling my lifestyle path and things will get better soon… Yes, I’m trying to get counseling – hoping the new guy I’m seeing this week will be good… I just thought I would share these feelings, venting a bit – I suspect I’m not alone in what I’m going through… I know things can get better 
Re: Carrying a Guiltmunchkin2011-10-02T23:44:15+00:00