Curly – My goodness! I feel sorry for your father. I know many people in that situation. I dont think its right. I worked at a job once that was doing that to me. I worked my butt off to keep the kitchen together (I was a line cook). We were short staffed so I would stay 2-3hours late cleaning the kitchen after a long stressful shift. I started as a dishwasher, and then saw the one cook needed help so I jumped right in and since that point was working 3 jobs at once. Main line cook, garde manger, and dishwasher. I would cook the main meal, run over to the garde manger station, whip up salads and desserts, when I had a moment send a few racks of dishes through the machine. I did my job well. They have never had so many compliments on the food. I work very well in chaos. My employers loved me. But always promised a raise and never delivered. I was becoming burnt out. I don’t stand for that, so I gave them my letter saying I quit. And they then said ‘oh we will give $12.50!!” at the time I was making $12 and was moving to another job who was going to pay $15. So I said… Give me $16 an hour and Ill stay. Then left. You are right about them thinking they have to stay at one job.. I never really thought of that before, but now that I do, that makes sense.
Nellie – I LOVE your motto!! hahaha Recently I have craving A LOT of change. Its time for some major changes and my mind is all over the place.. “I could do this!! or this!! Ok we are moving here… No here!! Actually lets move here!” Im finding it very hard to make a choice without an end goal. When I see the finish line, and I know the goal, I have no problem with sticking it to the end (hence my marriage). Like you said.. What do I want? Whats my goal? You are absolutely right, I do get cold feet. To be responsible…. Im at the point in life where “hey im a REAL adult now. I have REAL responsibility.” what I do now determines my future. I know I could be very successful, I exceed in all the jobs I have been in and remain to do so. But the fact scares me. Because of this people come to me with some big issues that I can see clear answers to and how to deal with them effectively. But that means I have to stick with them till the end. Thats the only way it works. Very exciting but scary! A full time presents full responsibility… That scares me. Ive always done the right thing however… As much as I tried to fight it. I am a strong believer in reaping what you sow. I was a pregnant teen and almost left my husband and kids so I myself could be a kid.. That was a hard long fight, but I knew what was right and stuck it through and I very glad I did. Now here at this crossroad is the risk of responsibility. I know it’s right. Just scary! hahaha But your motto is great! Now if only I could figure out what it is I want! What drives me! What are my motives! Then nothing would stop us! 
Maybe thats why its so hard… If we knew we would easily dominate the world! MWA HA HA HA hAAAA!!
No Dopamine – I LOVE the thrill of a new job, new people, new everything! I LOVE adventures and new things. Thats why when I was a receptionist I LOVED it. Got to meet and talk to new people everyday. At times would multitask 3 different people checking in, and at the same time sell fire wood and ice cream. Then I also got to deal with complaints. I LOVED it! I love to problem solve complaints, I do it very well. But low wage doesn’t cut it.The thought of the full time job and not the flexibility of casual work makes me antsy. All my other jobs before since I was a good worker, I could get any day off I wanted, could be a half hour late as long as I showed up before the big rush. And now as casual I can choose if I want to answer the phone or not and I get to bounce all over the building a good change in pace. But the work isnt always there and I have no benefits and that would be nice since I just had to pay $700 for my son at the dentist… I cant get coverage because we make too much money yet $700 is not pocket change!! Bleh! I like the idea of familiar problems that you discuss with your therapist. It seems I cant see the obvious unless someone points it out to me. And like you I see that black and white too which sucks at times. Mostly I continue to do things the hard way without thinking about it. haha With PMDD I easily saw my pattern and now going to work around it because its like clockwork. I am a very particular kind of person. Everything has to be its certain way and order so a routine to deal with PMDD excites me! As for my ADD im having a hard time seeing my faults and strengths. And then how to work around them? an example… For the life of me I cant get my laundry done. I hate the thought that its never ending and I (in the black and white thinking, and perfectionist) think, it has to be all or none! All done or not at all! Which is impossible with laundry! And I cant fold a shirt! I cant get it to line up PERFECT… I spend 10mins on one shirt still cant get it right, get angry and quit! Back to black and white thinking, I told this to a lady and she said “Just hang them up then” hahaha Gosh! So easy! why didnt I think of that! Goodness! And I now see in writing this my problems with laundry and how to over come! hahaha I love it when you need to say something and it finally clicks!
Phew! My goodness this is too long! I should take meds and get ready for work before im late!
What are some strengths and weakness have you found with your ADD and how did you manage?
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