I left a message for my dr. last night begging her to early refill my ambien 
made me feel like a tool. I really do feel kind of ashamed. She gave me 23 days which is weird because my appointment is in a month and a half. I’ve been stressing all day worrying that she was not going to fill it. sleep deprivation completely unravels me and I really want to prevent that. but well.. this is why I am putting a lot of my mental energy into mending my sleep cycle. I think my biggest issue here is that my work schedule is 0800 monday wednesday and friday..so i destroy my sleep schedule every day. I knew it was going to be a problem for me when I took the job and tried to get out of it. I couldn’t because I found out that I share an office with someone who is here tuesday and thursday. I am worried that my doc will take me off the ADHD meds too.. it would really really piss me off to discover concentration then have it taken away. while I am learning some skills, there are things I am doing on the meds which cannot be compensated with willpower and strategies.
my biggest sleep issue is my work schedule + my not going to bed compulsion. the ADHD meds are saving me from dangerous microsleeps in the morning on the way to work, but i know that they are a slight factor in my increasing insomnia problems.
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