Re: Do we tend ot be loners?

[Anonymous]

Yes I totally understand where you are coming from. I am so lonely. I am not alone at all but for some reason, I just can’t seem to “mingle” well with others. With my own family, I am often the one on the side, eating, staying quiet while other members are laughing and having a good time. I just can’t seem to join in. It’s even worse at my husbands’ side because I feel like I have to make an effort to “get into the circle” but when I do, I don’t know what to say, if I do say something, it’s feels off topic and awkward. I get a lot of anxiety from it and my mind is constantly thinking about it all the time. I wish I could just tune that part out, relax and have a good time. I have a terrible time at following conversations or know when to jump in. I also have a hard time at looking people directly in the eyes. I try but my eyes just can’t focus on there’s and I look away. It make the whole situation awkward for both parites. If a funny thing has happened to me and I want to tell people about it, I have a hard time explaining it. It just comes off awkward and not funny. I can tell because people aren’t laughing. I’m a lot better at expressing myselft via text or e-mail or through forums, lol. I so desperetely want to be normal and “fit in”. What’s worse is that my husband is so charming, funny and outgoing. When he met me, I was more outgoing than now…before I had kids and all of these repsponsibilites, but now we are two different people and I want to so badly, just to be able to enjoy this great life that I have with him. He thinks my ADHD is foolish and that anyone could have a little “ADD” too. He just doesn’t understand.

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