I can’t thank you guys enough for the replies. 
This morning when I got up from another rather sleepless night, I had decided to not take the meds again. Then I decided to see if I had any replies to my post and sure here you guys were.
jeneticallymodified- your posting made me laugh and realize you are sooooo right about me over analyzing myself. I tend to do that A LOT!!! Reading about all your trials and tribulations on meds I realized that I have to keep plugging ahead.
brentitude- you made me laugh when you said that just from my posting that I’m not making up any of my symptoms. HAHAHA Thanks!!
curlymoe- I hope that you are able to find the right doctor to help you out. I’m sure my sleep will come once my body has gotten used to the meds. Good luck!!!
hans-thanks for the words of encouragement, they mean a lot!!
So after reading the posts I took my meds and hope for a better day. The one thing I’ve noticed about it so far is that I can watch a tv show and actually be plugged into it. My mind stops racing. But come night fall my mind picks up again and goes all wonky, and now I’m thinking it’s cause the meds are starting to wear off and my brain is doing what it does all day not on meds. And I’m only realizing that just maybe the meds are helping all the racing to stop.
So thanks again, it’s so very much appreciated. I’m looking forward to getting to know you guys. I feel at home here. Like I belong.