Ok, I’ll keep posting on my original thread.
Well, its been two months since I started using medication (ritalin). To begin with I got a prescription of 30 tabs and a scheme to follow, to slowly up the dosage until i found those doses that fitted me best. What I’ve learned during that process is that dosage is really individual, which also makes my own personal responsibility greater. And also somewhat more difficult to explain to family and friends that you yourself decide how much drugs you are on, in difference with other drugs where the dosage is already decided by your doctor. Currently I’m on 20mg at 08.00 and 12.00, and 10mg 16.00 and 20.00. 20.00 depends if im at home or in a social/work situation.
What have I experienced?
Positive effects firstly then 
Calm. Focus. And effectivity. Last one bothers me to some extent, but I’ll come back to you on that one. Firstly, I feel calm. On 20mg it takes effect after about 20-40 minutes, depending on if I’ve eaten or not. You know the feeling that youre juggling a million balls in the air, and your afraid to loose them when everybody is looking? Well, now im not juggling. And I’m not afraid. Now tasks are like dominoes lying down. You just put them after eachother, and remove them as you finish the tasks. Focus is there too.
And here comes the sliding transition to the few negative effects. I mentioned effectivity as a positive effect. And it is. Definitly. You get stuff done much faster than before, you make decitions better AND faster than before. And best of all, you know it. But sometimes I feel like “maybe im on speed?”. I’ve never tried “speed/amphetamine” as a recreatonal drug, but sometimes it feels like things go so fast that I’m thinking..do i really have add? But again I’m convinced I have it, because..well, look above on the other positive effects.
Negative effects?
Few. Dry mouth, so remember to drink a lot. This probably is different from person to person, but for me its a lot. well, not a lot, but when spitting, the spit is like cream. But I’ve read that its mostly temporary, and that when I start on concerta (when ive found my optimal dosage) it goes away.
Second one is lack of appetite. This has a negative side, but I guess its normal.. Now, we dont have a scale in our house, but I’m fairly sure I’ve lost a little bit. I feel a bit skinny. Not to much, maybe 5 kilos..but I feel I can see it. Now, the explanation is probably that when I was not using ritalin, my body needed more food becaue my metabolism was higher. Now its normal, and i have to remember to eat right. Lack of hunger makes it easier also to eat right. But be careful! Also, after a 2 day special forces tryout (in the homeguard 
), where I worked out a lot, my muscle mass seemed to increase..my GF was like “WTF?!”. Me as well. So I guess the energy from food goes where it’s supposed to go, instead of being used for something else…dunno, this is just thoughts. If someone has something to add to this, then be my guest to share your thoughts.
Also, from being someone who was constanly trying and then giving up, Ive become someone why tries, completes and gets a better self esteem. The house still looks like a mess, but i contribute, and it doesnt look like a mess just because of me My realtionship and my view of it is great. I just feel….complete. And self confident. And right, not wrong.
Well, gotta stop there. I have things to do (of course). Any questions you have, or views, feel free