Re: I guess its not self esteem. But what is it?

[Anonymous]

Thank you so much for your replies!

Today is a new day and much of last nights frustration has faded. I had a long talk with DH last night and that helped.

He has ADD hyperactivity, so there is a great amount of understanding there. He offered to accommodate me last night and try to not remind me of things. He also has anxiety and compulsively asks if I locked the house and things like that. So it was a big thing for him to take on.

As soon as he offered I realized that I really do simply have bad self esteem. It would be easier for me if he were the problem and I was fine. (I have lied to myself that way before.) But as soon as he offered, I didn’t want him to change for me. I don’t think he should have to and I don’t feel I deserve it.

Realizing it was a self esteem issue is a bit of a relief, actually. That one I know how to deal with. And its less complicated.

There is a lot of complications in our relationship. If I didn’t hate typing so much I would tell our story. Lol I just can’t be on a computer that long!

I love having this place to come and talk. Often my own inner advocate answers my questions, though.

Good wishes and thanks to Allan and Lana

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