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Yikes, parties! Or, any gathering of people…I go into ‘lockdown’. If I know the peeps I’m not too bad, but I’ve just had too many bad experiences….it ususlly starts from my conversing, because once I’m ‘up and running’ then that’s it, there’s no stopping me, and if somebody takes umbrage at anything that I’ve uttered it just snowballs from there. When I was younger too many parties ended up as disasters as all hell broke loose, and so I tried to avoid them as much as possible, but when they couldn’t be avoided I banished myself to a corner with a self-applied ‘gag order’. It is weird because I can be very amusing, and I can be ‘the life of the party’, but it just makes life easier for everybody if I keep out of the way….do any of you seem to have an ability to ‘get a handle’ on people very easily? Even as a kid I seemed to have an ability to read people, like a card player I suppose, so that I could figure out what people were like no matter what they were saying, or no matter how nice or nasty they they were trying to act? I could see them, stripped naked in a sense (not in a physical way) and I’ve never been wrong! It’s a horrible thing, and it has caused much conflict within relationships. eg. my wife will introduce me to somebody, or a couple, and then interrogate me as to why I was so rude, or ambivalent towards that person or persons, and then I’d tell her why…this would prompt her to start nagging about me not being psychic etc. and she’d have that person, or persons, as her friend/s only to after a period of time discover that I was right all along! Sometimes I don’t even have to engage the people in dialogue, just by observing and listening I’ll have everybody nearby ‘pegged’…. 😆
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