Thank you for all the pointers! My photography is more of a paying hobby right now. Until I have everything figured out (pretty much all the points Larynxa brought up) and clear in my head, I won’t feel comfortable making my photography services “official”. I have no idea where to go about contracts. I think I saw something about purchasing them online….
As for preparation, I visited the wedding locations beforehand, even brought a friend who does this for a living with me! I also attended the wedding rehearsal. I showed up where I was supposed to be on time, except for being 5-10minutes late for the formal shots because I took a wrong turn (even after having driven there before to make sure I knew how to get there!!). These little mishaps shake my confidence a lot!!!
I’ve tried notebooks and such, but I either forget to write in them or lose the book. My wallet is clipped to my car keys to make sure I don’t forget one. I just do so many stupid things when I’m overly anxious it’s crazy! And all this time I was never able to explain it, until now of course! I’d love an Iphone, but I keep misplacing my regular cellphone! Even if I have a spot for it, I somehow get distracted on my way to putting it where it belongs (by another phone ringing, the kids, my husband talking to me) that I sometimes don’t recall setting it down, but somehow I did and I can’t figure out where!!
When I booked this wedding, I had no idea I might be ADD. If I had, I would have made sure to get treatment well underway before booking. My sister is actually the one who recognized the symptoms.
I think I put off using the term “professional” because to me it equals high expectations. I’d rather lower the expectation and wow them in the end. This being said, I always behave professionally. I just don’t like the title :S
So many people came up to me during the wedding rehearsal (including the parents of the bride and groom) to tell me how much they loved the engagement pics I took and how they thought I had real talent. One should feel good when this happens, but in my case I felt so much pressure to perform at the same caliber for the wedding (with absolutely no previous experience).
At the wedding reception, a retired professional photographer even came up to me to say how he thought I had talent for this type of thing. For a split second, it felt good, but then before I knew it I found myself worried that I wasn’t up to par with the shots I had just taken.
I read that many ADDers sometimes feel like a fraud, when they achieve something and can’t do it again. The higher my education (I have my Masters in Nutrition) the more I feel like a fraud because of the stupid things I still do or say.
I’m always doubting myself and this causes me to make foolish mistakes 
Sorry, I’m just down lately when I should be feeling good…..
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