you could publish that. 
oh um… ages? the shrink has been upping the dose every 8 weeks or so since i suppose about the end of august, maybe july… i made myself a table to record improvements and suchlike…
my sleep patterns has improved (time is down to 8 or 9 hours from 12-14+ … i still struggle to get into bed before 4am though), i can think a lot clearer and somewhat more calmly, with more patience and rationality, i feel more aware of what i’m doing, saying, and screwing up (unfortunately usually just after i’ve screwed it up!)…
but i’m still struggling a lot with stuff around motivation and procrastination (getting started with stuff, stopping doing something that i’ve got focused on, etc), energy levels (still up and down- mainly down- i get super wired when i try and push myself to get going, and then i can’t stop, and i still turn into a horribly irrational and grumpy toddler when i’m tired), i’m still really twitchy and restless and incredibly late for everything (time management: fail)…and i’m having to force myself to make and eat food, which sucks cos it’ll wreck my already sluggish metabolism and i won’t lose weight by not eating for 12 hours and having cookies for breakfast….
so i don’t know. 
i was already on effexor and wellbutrin for depression, which are meant to have a mild stimulating effect (i think they do, cos i’m out of bed and somewhat functional since taking them- i had bucketloads of wicked apathy and doom beforehand, now i have fleecy jammies and craft projects 
)… and sometimes i feel like i’m a walking chemistry project… but i know that i need to be on the antidepressants- its taken the longest time to accept that, so i’m loathed to mess with them too much- the effexor at least.
yeah, i know what you mean about the SSRI’s… i’ve come off a bunch of them a few times before- including effexor once (which wasn’t wicked-fun)… slow and steady is definately the way to go there.
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