I’m on meds for over a year now, 36mg of concerta, and they gave me Ritalin to top it up when it wears off. I tried the Ritalin but it was like having a brain freeze! I couldn’t think outside of the word I was saying, if that makes any sense at all. Trouble is, the concerta now isn’t having any affect on me, and i’m eating like a maniac as I’m sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo restless, and at 45 years old, I should bloody well grow up! I have so many ideas, so many things to do, and I do nothing, except beat myself up inside, mentally, and think about suicide, constantly. I tried sedatives for a year years ago, and I became an ogre, it helped my weight issues for a year. Then I put it all back on again, so I had an op, stomache reduced, gastric sleeve, worked for 6 months, now I’ve screwed that one up too. I can’t stop saying what I’m thinking, and my thoughts are written all over my face, getting me into all sorts of trouble, must have had 10 businesses over the past 10 years, and 50 jobs easily. I can’t stand it anymore, just want to feel inner calm. Did meditate, but I procrastinate about that too 
(((( I love having high energy, but now i’m older, I’m supposed to be more controlled, and I don’t like standing out in a crowd, but I do! How can I put my hand inside my body and calm me down???? ouch!
Re: What do you expect / what are you gaining from your medication?2011-07-12T21:01:50+00:00