I can relate to all the fears you are having!! If it’s any comfort, I think you knew all along that none of these problems were deliberate, and whether it’s ADD or some other problem, you are trying to get better!!! That’s why you trying to get a diagnosis! That’s why you feel bad about how your problems may have impacted other people.
A crappy person wouldn’t even be upset about this – and they wouldn’t be trying to change for the better 
Good luck at your appointment – let us know how it goes!!!
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