Sorry to hear about that Bear but I totally relate to your love experiences. Being that I can barely care for myself and still living at home, having stopped trying to work from about 2 years ago, I think you did pretty well. I’m not even in a position to ever have a marriage.
I honestly have no clue how I managed to make it this far. My biggest wish for you is that you get the help you need and get the life you deserve back.
It seems that most of the people who are getting therapy and treatment do quite well. That in itself soothes my angst.