Perhaps some of the “others” feel the same way about you Trashman!
Behind doors who knows what struggles people go through. Society has put so much pressure on our natural state, we/they strive for what is in most cases unavailable. It is perhaps wise to keep in mind the Polyanna game. Its works as a motivational tool and a life enhancing outlook.
Try for a day Trashman and see how you go
WOFH 
Peter x
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