25 and ready to be diagnosed…..

First of all, hello to all and THANK YOU!!! I have so many posts and I feel as though I FINALLY have a reason to see myself as something other than stupid and lazy.

I didn’t even consider ADD before I became a teacher and now I am seeing that the signs have been there all along. I go through a number of “break-downs” a year when I feel as though I’m drowning because I can’t seem to organise myself, get the basics over and done with, or find contentment with my job. I’ve always wanted to do well and know that I am able to, but I’ve never been able to focus myself or organise myself enough to make that a reality. At 25 years old, I already feel as though I’ve missed out on so much and I hate it.

Now, I find myself in a job that allows me to move on a day to day basis (in the classroom), but it’s the paperwork that I can’t deal with. Between long-term teaching plans (just the name freaks me out) and sitting down to write up 25 report cards, I feel as though I can barely keep my head above the water and continually wonder if I’m in the wrong job, despite the fact that I LOVE being with those kids!

Any teachers out there?!?!?!?! How do you make this work????

I have an appointment in a few weeks with my physician and I’ll finally be asking for a referal..I’m bringing in the online tests (that I pass with flying colours) and I’m hoping that I’m on my way to finding happiness!

Again though, THANK YOU so much to all of you! Hearing everything from the internet browsers and multiple bookmarks, to the incessant thoughts, to lacking the ability to focus, I feel as though there ARE people who understand me.

Daniel

P.S. I would LOVE to write a blog about this journey, but my 18 blogs have never seen more than 3 posts…for some reason, I can never manage to stay with them