The effects of being bullied as a child are going to be with you for the rest of your life. You can either let them eat you alive, or you can learn how to adapt so they can’t hurt you so much (and might even help you to be a better person).
Kind of like what happens when you find out you have ADHD.
You can either ruminate on all the things you’ve missed out on or screwed up because of it…or you can learn what to do to make the most of it for the rest of your life.
(Easier said than done, but well worth the effort.)