Hi! I am Mika. I was first diagnosed with ADHD at the age of nine and this past summer I was diagnosed with combination adult ADHD. And to be honest I am adrift in a tiny paper boat in this vast ADHD sea. I was recently left by my ex-husband two years ago. So now alone in a town very far from my main support system I am finding my self; trying to figure out how to do all of this. The being a single mom when I can’t even remember to feed my self, most of the time. Paying bills. Running a household. Juggling multiple jobs as I try to get into school to finish an education I put on hold for him. Medications, no sleep, multiple therapists (one for my ADHD one for the emotional and mental abuse from my marriage). I find my little paper boat taking on water and I don’t know what to do. I have many loving friends and an endlessly supportive family but none of them truly get it, and I feel alone in the shame, the frustration, the daydreaming. I don’t know how I am ever going to get out of this hole when my brain won’t give me the ability to be wonder woman. I think I need some support of people who understand. I have never met someone else with ADHD who is willing to communicate about it. I want to know that it is okay. I want to know how others handle this and that I am not failing at life. So anyone else feels alone? Anyone else in a paper boat? Anyone want to stop traveling alone and maybe start a fleet of paper boats together?wiredonjavaParticipant
Hi Mika, I can relate and I thank you for putting your struggle so well into words. I feel like an oddball all of the time and feel much depression/anxiety/social isolation. The communication problems I experience daily are endless and my restlessness and search for belonging too. I joined an online bbok club on goodreads so if you want to join https://www.goodreads.com/group/show/18975-readers-with-add-adhd here it is. I don’t know if you live near Hamilton, Ont. but there is a live support group if you can make it, it might be helpful https://www.eventbrite.ca/o/adhdok-adult-adhd-in-hamilton-4298009931 I wish I could help more but I feel like I’m falling through the cracks too. I can’t find any specialists and I’m tired of defending myself all the time. Chat me up anytime. P.S. this website is undergoing construction for awhile and it’s annoying 🙂 Cathymikaturn88Participant
Thanks Cathy! I am actually in Saskatchewan and there is a support group here but it is in conflict with my days that I have my daughter. It’s the organizational and getting going that I have issues with most of the time. I will have to find time to look into this goodreads book club. There never seems to be enough hours in the day.
Hi, I hope you’ve found some relief. I know how hard it can be when you feel alone. I got to the point of sitting with the gun in my lap. The main thing that stopped me was that I lost a lifelong friend and I didn’t want to put anyone thru “survived by”. (Sorry for sad story) On the positive, it lead to being diagnosed and life got better. At first it was multiple meds plus lots of tiny steps. It helped to know it was ADD and not because I was just an incompetent idiot. Maybe you can find a starter buddy online, someone who you make a time to give each other a gentle kick and complete tasks with (like a workout buddy). Good luck and remember it does get better.That Guy with ADHDParticipant
Yes, Mikaturn88. I’m sure there are many people, including myself, who would love to be part of your paper boat floatilla. Wiredonjave has already shared a bucket for bailing water and tsukbaigirl has given you another good idea of a starter buddy. If you feel as if you are sinking there are people here that will gladly help to keep your vessel afloat.
AKA That Guy with ADHD
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