JUST got hired, JUST got medicated, JUST got PREGNANT?!?!?!

[Anonymous]

So according to 5 VERY faint lines and one very ckear digital responce, im pregnant. Ill be ok getying rid of my welbutrin as i usially forgot to take it anyway but i just got hired in surgery n i NEED my adderol…ive already been fired from one operating room back when i wasnt taking a high enough dose but im gonna lose this job before it starts if theres isnt something i can take. Lrts start wothherbs n teas n stuff first maybe…

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[Scattybird]

Wow Tdevonner I don’t know whether to say congratulations or OMG or both! I’m sensing it isn’t great timing but then the best things often pop up unexpectedly.

I have no idea what you can take when pregnant and what you can’t. I think the meds are a bigger issue when breast feeding rather than now….but I have no idea. You have to get professional advice.

I just didn’t want your post to go unanswered because it’s such big life changing news for you.

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[Anonymous]

Hi Tdevonner, congratulations on your new job and pregnancy. I don’t know the answer to your question either, but just wanted to say that I went through two pregnancies without meds (wasn’t diagnosed then) and a lot of the lapses in memory and judgement, people just blame on ‘pregnancy brain’ I hope someone who’s had a baby can help you, but probably best to ask your doctor. All the best – kids are the greatest…and you’ll be fine!

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[Anonymous]

Its ok guys….i lost my baby. I shoulda known 4 weeks was too early to get excited n start getting attached n trlling ppl. (I a firm believer in jynxing stuff) but i did it anyway. A day after i started telling all my closest friends n family members the ER doc infotmed me thay 4 werks n 6 days is as far as my baby made it. would still like answers tho for when it is the right time. Ps: everyone always talks about miscarriage from a sad point of view, no1 ever mentions the trauma. I mean i kno a baby was the last thing i needed right now. Im living with my parents cuz im just getting over a huge psychokogical break i had a few montgs ago, im just getting over my sex addiction, im still heavily addicted to pornography, ive just quit smoking 4 months ago, the father of my child is a wonderful guy so fat, but still ive only known him a lil over a month, and even tho right now ive turbed over a new leaf in my life and my menral and physical health is 150% better already in 2012 as opposed to 2011 and earlier…the stresses of a new baby new job new relationshop anf basically new life (both good and bad stress) could have potentially undid all my progress…so even tho im sad, i ubderstand. But what i xant seem to get over ( *WARNING, GRAPHIC CONTENT AHEAD*) is the physical trauna of it all. My baby was ovviously too young to even count as a baby the dr said (he said it in away that made me unserstand that even tho its horribke to think of it that way, it may help me disconnect, he wasnt insensitive as he said it somehow). I ubderstand that but it was MY non baby. I had stopped thinking technically already and had started think affectionately. I wasnt “just pregnant” i was “jusy holding my baby safe until hes ready to meet me”. So even tho he doesnt really count, he was mine. My CHIKD. my chikd that i had to watch run down my leg in the shower. My child that i was yelling at begging him not to leave me as i closed my legs n tried to hold him in.,My little baby that everytime i use the bathroom now i see bits of him floating next to my shit, where i then have to use my own wilk to flush him down to a grave of no rspect. Everyone talks about the sadness of knowing ur baby is gone, but no1 talks about the sheer hurt of watching hin leave. As foolish as it sounds, i already loved cmy little sesame sized “cluster of cells”

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[Scattybird]

I am sorry to read this. Life can be a real bitch sometimes.

I don’t know what to say. Your description is very powerful and gets over very well how you are feeling. Be upset, shout at the world and talk to people about it.

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[Anonymous]

Thanks…thats kinda what ive been doing. It actually has helped alot.

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[Anonymous]

Update: i wish i coukda known i was gonna miscarry cuz then i coulda kept taking my welbutrin jnowing it wouldnt affect the outxome. I thought i was doing better but im a wreck. I really wish i hadnt taken it so inconsistently before i was pregnant and furthermore that i had takin it while pregnant. Ive since alienated myself from most. Those who were there are being sxared off one by one and i dont blame them. Thay father of my angel was so great with me and my grief at first but ive since made it impossible for him so he has had to seperate himself from me to preserve his own heart and to preserve our relationship. And i just snapoed at my older sister so bad bad that she hasnt txted me back n i know its cuz shes home crying…i can probably count one one hand the amount of times this girl has ever cried…even my mothersaid that she really only remebera her crying once in her first year of life, whining yes but she never cried n everybody knew it. So that one time she did cry everyone freaked out. This is the girl who is xurrentky sitting home crying. I kno it. I can feel it. Shes my sister. Im hurting the few pop l that i have that can be that rock to support me n make me feel better. N the worst part is, even tho i hate myself for feeling this way, i slightly feel a tinge of satisfaction at the fact that i am making it so that i am not the only one hurt. Ive never been like this. Thru all my jacked up life ivw never been the kind to hurt others amd furthermore enjoy it. Im the girl that allows her rapist to have his way because she unserstands that there is something wrong in his mind…and then afterward feela sorry for him for having such a horrible mind, conpletely forgetting that i myself was just raped. (true story) …

And i cannot deny…this is why i am not allowed my child. Im too unstable. Dear welbutrin, when wilk u kick in? Why is it that medication to take the pain away can kick in within seconds but medication to take the hurt away take so long…if they ever kick in at all…

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