[caringchaotic]

Thank you so much for the reply Rita. All of what you said resonates. I’m sorry for the late reply. Things have been pretty hectic and chaotic recently as I’ve moved to a new area and had lots to sort out. But i am really grateful for you taking the time to write such a good reply.

I also find handwriting things is the best way of making information go into my brain. I don’t tend to take things in when I’m just told verbally so have to write it down. But yes, if I have to write notes fast, although I can usually get the information down it is usually very messy and disorganised and I should really write it down again neatly and go over it so I take it in but I usually don’t get round to it. Somehow I got through university but I don’t have any proper system for notes. I just have a random assortment of mindmaps and flashcards in different folders so I wouldn’t be able to study from stuff again in a systematic way if I needed to.

Anyway, you’re right. I think I do need help but I’m not even registered with a doctor as I’m living somewhere new so I need to get around to doing that first. And where I’m living it’s a long process and people don’t tend to believe adults have it. I think I would have to go private but I can’t currently as I’m in a pretty dire financial situation. I don’t think outwardly I look that ADHD as well so I feel like people wouldn’t believe me. I do fidget a lot if I’m bored but often I don’t do things I find boring so I don’t need to fidget that much. Although even if I’m watching a great tv show I do have to have something in my hands to play with like a pebble or blue tack. And as I’m writing this I’m biting the inside of my mouth and my nails.

I am quite stressed though so need to do something about it. Yesterday I was late to a financial appointment even though I tried really really hard to run on time. I’ve really struggled to sleep at all at the new place I’m living as the curtains let too much light in so I need to sort that out. I’ve had to buy quite a few new things as I left a lot behind at the last place I was living which is really annoying. Everything is a bit of an uphill battle but i like a challenge.

My work environment is a hospital so I don’t think it’ll be possible to make it quiet but luckily I’m alright with a bit of background noise. Sometimes when it’s quiet you notice small sounds more don’t you? Like at night I’ll not be able to sleep and then become aware that there’s a tiny sound coming from my laptop as it’s still switched on. In a busy environment, sometimes you can cancel out the other sounds a bit when something is really important and demands all your attention. I might be alright.

I agree you can’t really outgrow it. I’m pretty certain my Dad has it. He’s impossible to have a proper conversation with as he interrupts and talks over you or gets distracted by the dog or something.

If I do have it though I don’t think it’s all bad. I’m super random and I act like a clown which is great for cheering people up. I’m pretty resourceful (jump through hoops to do things in a quick and less tedious way) and am excitable and encouraging to others. And I’m a Gryffindor 🙂

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Also, even if the questions to you seem like they might be unreliable, I’d imagine they would have tried them out on people with and without ADHD to make sure they don’t have false positives etc as I think stuff like that usually has to have set criteria in order to be valid as a clinical tool.

Having doubts is completely understandable. It’s a big diagnosis to come to terms with. But hopefully it will impact your life for the positive 🙂

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Hi Alex

I can’t help much as I’m new to the forum too and don’t have a diagnosis but I have the same worries. I’m wondering whether to mention it to the GP but I know how awkward it is in the UK to get it investigated. It does sound a bit ambiguous but if it all makes sense for you then it might be helpful as regardless of whether you definitely have it or not (although I assume you have since it’s formally diagnosed), the sorts of support they might offer will probably be useful to whatever difficulties you are facing, whether they are from ADHD or ADHD type traits. And if you have meds prescribed I guess if they work it means you have it and if they don’t then it might be something else? But I’m sure the specialists know what they’re talking about as they will have had experience with lots of people who do have it. They’ll probably piece it all together from the history and how you seem in front of them.

It sounds promising that you’ve got some support for the specific problems you’re facing, or at least the diagnosis should help you access that support 🙂

Do you mind me asking how much it cost to go private?

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I packed my car up with all my possessions the other week and drove off, had a niggling feeling I’d left something behind and found I’d left my laptop on the ground in the parking space.

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