[forestcitymike]

Hello all!!! Lol

its been since early summer that I’ve actually felt the need to check back in with my ADD diagnosis and continue learning all I can about it.

Just a quick catch up of the last 7 months…..

As some might’ve noticed from my earlier posts in this thread I was so DAMNED excited and straight up lil school girl gitty about the fact my new medication was working so well and literally changing my life!!

well today, January 5, 2015 I can say that I’ve been with my girlfriend now since summer and I’ve truly never been happier in my life. * I don’t like to get into details but my 14 year relationship with my wife ended at the same time my addiction to H did. We have 2 beautiful girls from our relationship and they’re the two complete loves of my life!! Here’s why I mention this…at the time my wife told me to leave so her new guy could take my place she was convinced I was doomed to live a miserable life, she actually convinced me of this as well. So, no details but EVERYTHING was done to have my girls see me as the monster my ex convinced herself I was. No exaggeration at all, but NEVER, and I mean NOT ONCE speaking ill of their mother and just focussing on recovery and being a father worked miracles for me!!! It’s probably not possible for a father and his daughters to be closer to each other than I am with my girls, who are 6&8 btw. My oldest has a sense of what I’ve been through and surprisingly enough is proud of her Daddy

I can’t say enough how much I appreciate and value sites like this and this forum in particular. Although I don’t consider others on here as complete strangers, in reality this is what we are to each other. It’s so incredible that I’ve found a community that I can research and vent and talk about my deepest life issues without worrying about assholes or just plain stigma.

Mi sincerely want to thank EVERY single person who’s used these forums and added a caring conversation partner when we have no place else that feels so safe.

I’m sure you’re noticing that I’m seriously cheesy but as stated in my earlier posts, I’ve been through hell and all the way to the bottom and back up again. The lessons that’s taught me make me feel the constant need to communicate my appreciation for anyone who’s willing to help a “stranger”

and BlackDog. I edited out my part about having my anxious thoughts come back just as you warned me about. Thanks for the heads up there. Having read this actually helped me realize that it was “normal” to still feel anxiety/depression from time to time

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[forestcitymike]

Hey 🙂

thanks for your responses and apologies for the delay. I thought the exact same thing when this started to happen almost everytime. I actually did have someone check my blood glucose and it was fine. 🙁

hydration definitely isn’t an issue but the carbs may be. I’ve been avoiding mostly bread lately like the plague, mostly eating fruits and veggies. I’m going to Try having a decent sized meal an hour or so before my next workout and see if that helps at all.

Thanks so much for the suggestions as I just don’t understand what’s up.

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Lol. :)): totally understand that feeling. About sleeping. My depression and anxiety was obviously a result of a brutal stutter and years of bullying. I’m learning though that the ADD going untreated most definitely didn’t help.

as far as my addiction goes I NEVER used my drug of choice to get high. Honestly. Now that’s not to say I didn’t have my “fun” with drugs when I was younger. Actually looking back I would say I was a text book “stoner”. From an early age I just never liked how I felt physically, mentally and emotionally. I just felt blah constantly. If that makes sense. Never happy or sad just blah. Lol. Now that I’ve dealt with my addiction and came out the other side a completely different person, it’s almost as if I’m now one of those people I used to just loathe. Ya know, happy and healthy. Lol.

 

Im im curious to know more about your comment about not broadcasting out ADD to others. Not that I have but that really peaked m. Interest. What exactly do you mean? Do people automatically assume the worst of you and underestimate you ? My secret to life has been to be underestimated. Lol. All those years I couldn’t talk or communicate I just soaked up EVERYONE’S body language and somehow I’m able to “feel” people. Lol. And I am NOT a stoner or hippy I’m being completely honest.

 

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Lolol 🙂 Thanks so much for the response and the info. Makes complete sense. And yes I use my iphone most of the time. 😉

as far as the anxiety/depression goes I appreciate the advice and therefore the concern. I’ve been seeing my psych every week now for a lil over two years and she has helped tremendously.

I honestly feel everything I went through and all the lessons I learned from losing literally everything with my addiction helped out A LOT!! It’s horrible to say but I’m glad that I had to go through that. It made me who I am, which btw is a completely different person before this. It also taught me what’s important to me. Also the viscous loneliness both during and after it has given me the chance to really discover who I am at the deepest level I’ve ever been able to.

Like I said I’m 32 and I think people around my age or older that have ADD had it very rough as a child. Considering those are the most important years development wise, I’m so profoundly proud of myself and anyone else whose even through it. I love that it’s more accepted these days and all of the negative connotations associated with ADD in the past have all but vanished. 🙂 now as a society we need to reach that pint with mental health and addiction!

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Hello there and thanks for reading and responding. You’re more than welcome. I like to share my story in case anyone can relate.

Its comforting to know that others have self medicated before actually seriously dealing with their ADD. I’d never really thought if it that way, even though my explanation is the epitome of self medicating. 🙂

ive learned that Biphentin is a Canadian medication used for ADD. It’s capsule form and contains multy layer beads. The first layer is IR and provides 40% of the total dose whereas the rremaining layers contain 60% that is used as controlled release.

I also find it strange that different formulations of the SAME med work differently. Strange and kind of scary actually.

Im glad I’ve found this forum when I did. I’m also glad I finally was able to just stop being an idiot and realize that just because I need help with something medically doesn’t make me said idiot. Lol

hey, some people take blood pressure meds, I take meds for my focus and attention.

Another thing I find odd is that methylphenidate is classified as a stimulant. However it’s effects on me are nothing close to stimulating in a Classic sense. I understand stimulating to mean energy producing almost. It actually stops me from being fidgety and shakey.

Can anyone explain this to me? Lol

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[forestcitymike]

I wanted to ask an Admin…can I copy and paste this into the “Concerta” forum? I just want anyone who might be having similar issues with Concerta to have this article available to them.

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