[nicholas23]

My brother whom I am extremely close too is ADHD, and I am acute ADHD. I never quite understood as an adolescent, I just had this feeling when I looked at the general population, I knew I stood away, but I never knew why. Naturally, I was heavily plagued with relating to my fellow homo sapiens.I struggled immensely with idolizing and devaluing people.

As fellow sufferers of ADD and ADHD alike, now that I almost died during a tonsillectomy because of my extreme blood pressure, after a 24 hour urine analysis it became clear that my body just produced a excess of adrenaline and epinephrine, and it all became clear to me. The years of misery in sports breaking my body 8 hours a day, the beating I took in the Marine Corps and flight school mentally and physically, and even now as I pursue Cornell law and continue my studies in philosophy, I have become increasingly consciously aware of the people around me and I categorize them based off of their majors, their previous socioeconomic factors, and finally what I believe to be their mental genetic makeup regarding how their neurological makeup transcends over into their personality, thus how I distinguish between talking to people without ADD/ADHD and communicating with people who don’t.

Essentially, when I communicate with people especially in college where you meet thousands of different intellectual people on a day to day basis, I know this abut my own personal ADHD mind and how hard it is for a stark ADHD person like myself to relate to them:

1.) They bore me immensely, but at the same time I know they’re not boring people. In fact, the majority of people I meet who are not ADD/ADHD are very level headed, caring, intelligent people, but they bore me to death. With the ADHD mind, we are all slaves to the most extremes of every emotion, and we love and hate it at the same time. When I feel a mindset seeping in, usually some image or possible future that I have for myself, and I become excited and motivated, but this is also true for all aspects of the ADHD mind, as biologically and neurologically we are wired to seek the thrill, follow everything to the bitter end, we want meaning, not boring social intricacies that we just tune out. We want connection, emotion, a moment or a memory, a feeling in the air that excites us and puts lighting in our bones.

When I speak with fellow ADD/ADHD people such as my brother, there is just this beautiful temporal conscious connection, a mutual understanding of one another. When me and my brother speak, and another close business associate I have who is also a fellow sufferer of acute documented ADHD will all build off one another, we all mutually don’t care about the grotesque, the sad, the happy, the social stigmatization’s, the ever changing idea of “right” and “wrong” and question everything, no matter how uncomfortable it is to ponder, this is something I have never been able to do with a non ADD/ADHD person, it’s too much for them, it’s uncomfortable to most, people want to believe in their small reality, while ADHD people are just constantly questioning and pondering everything they know, some people can be extremely smart but this is just not something they are comfortable with.

So, in closing, talking to people who are ADD is more of a discussion for controlling procrastination and such, but when I meet a fellow documented ADHD sufferer, I can immediately feel their presence psychically and emotionally, sometimes me and my colleagues philosophizing of metaphysics and all the unknowns in the universe, and with each and every clarity you can logically create between the two of you, it just enhances both person’s hyperactivity, their emotion takes over and we ride the euphoric feeling of finally meeting someone who you can look at in a auditorium of 300 people, and immediately know what they’re thinking without having to speak to them, constructive and intellectual communication between two people who are not only controlling their ADHD, but using many of the ADHD mind’s advantages in order to elevate their mind and financial future, is a tantalizingly pleasurable experience.

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