Re: Bullying

[Anonymous]

I refer to what my father once said to me.

As a first grader and second grader it didn’t matter that i got bullied it wasn’t problem for me. But i wasn’t aware of it that time also he said.

From third grade when i was in the fall wholly in school, i started old hobby again (sports being running and stuff), but when i got aware of that practising i did at school seemed like “He’s doing that funny stuff again” i dropped that hobby very shortly. I was very childish in first and second year (second year i was almost all winter ill and i wasn’t at school very often), third years spring i was near death experience, i was twice at hospital first time i had serious dehydration, i was 10 days in drugs coma. after that i had operation which took of my tonsils? (which may grew too big (which was constant in my situation in childhood).

In 4th grade i was pain in the ass to my fellow students, i got picked on because in the third grades end i got my brace which i had to ninth grade (in my memory). 4th grade was the worst for me, friend which i had in second and first year turned me down saying i wasn’t enough i good person for him to be friends (afterwards he has apologized his behaviour and i have accepted it.. just myself to figure how to deal with it without having it on with me anymore)..

5th grade was better from the spring side when i finally got myself to open up to the guys… some of them saw the light and maybe because girls stood up for me ( i was in girls textile class). And best was 6th grade…

But i befriended one student whom had been bullied from the first grade to the 6th grade. We were best friends that year. He moved to other school to get away from those who spoke ill of him. We met as 7th graders at sporthappening in the rowing stadium. He was having time of his life. His numbers had risen in many of those like math and such and mostly behaviour number.. What i didin’t know at that moment… my certain grades would lower substancially which would make my fall.

It is sore to say but i surely got bullied, i even tried it myself being very poor on it and let it rest (for my and all others case).

They remember to say to me and repeat it often.. Don’t think on the past because it won’t change anything. Still i feel this urge dwell on it. There is something i should know of me but i can’t make myself to getting on with it. It would or it wouldn’t clear my thoughts. I don’t see future in this. It’s almost like trying to figure how to survive but not doing anything for it.

Oh, well one shouldn’t get into stuff like this…….

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