yay lots of responses!!! way too tired to reply individually.. oh and I should be changing out work clothes and getting for my friend to hang out…but..i’m not………. he’ll come over and have to wait??? …………….grumble…….
i make schedules too…but when I’m in ‘that’ mood, i just scoff at it and don’t care just long enough to not get it done! every (&*_(# time.. like when trying to go to bed.. every O*)_#@ night…ALL OF THEM.. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT OF MY LIFE… lol…
bild-what’s been going on in your life in the last few months. i remember you were talking about a work situation in which you decided to fight.. super stressful.
you guys totally get my frustration with myself 
none of that…well, stop doing that and go to bed. >_<.
lakelly, what’s going on? how do you usually recover from those slippery periods? self-medicating just leads to more self-medicating related to the stress of self-medicating and the problem which remains unsolved 
. must nip it in the bud!!!!!
…..need to get ready for friend..but still have 10 internet tabs to read. lol. i actually finished my BBC news for the evening lol. however, i’ll probably end up vegetating in the bathroom attempting to go to bed before 3am, reading CNN on my mobile. i keep telling myself to stop. I even set a kitchen timer.. then blatantly ignore it as it goes off.. like I’m desensitizing.
I got to bed at a decent time last night however….earliest time ever since maybe april? I took my med way too late in the day because I stayed up all night the night before on BBC. was watching this documentary about the slums in the Philippines. and some stuff I cannot remember. got into bed at 11pm thanks to the meds still being in my system.. slept like crap though! but maybe that was because I woke up at 1:30pm that day? maybe just bad to try and sleep on stimulants? arg!
ok………ignore the tabs……they call out………………………….. ….
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