Re: It may be too late for me

[Anonymous]

Wow! I do believe I have found my tribe!! This is a crazy question, but are there any of you out there who can drink coffee and have none of the caffeine side effects? Caffeine is a stimulant and has no effect for me. I can drink a cup of strong coffee and have no trouble sleeping. Just curious.

I have been depressed most of my life and have taken Prozac for part of it. I had to continually keep upping the dosage and finally gave up. Not a good idea….When the drug Straterra came out i tried it and was amazed how focused I was. A totally new thing for me! “So this is what it feels like to be able to focus….hmmm — I think I like it!”. I didn’t have money to continue it at the time, but now wish I would/could have. I am going to give it a try again because the life I have been living is not really living. I have no energy, no desire to do anything, depression that comes and goes, looking back on my life as one of complete failure, blah blah blah. In cleaning out my desk last week I came across a bunch of business cards. They were all businesses that I had started and for one reason or another let go of, lost interest in, not sure exactly. Is that perhaps the part of ADD where projects go unfinished? I have that too – lots of knitting and sewing projects unfinished!! LOL!

Oh, and the part about being interrupted while you are hyperfocused…..boy that is something! Was a legal secretary for 20 years and when I was in the middle of something and got interrupted, wow – it was not pretty! Surprised I didn’t get fired for THAT! Other than that, I do not have much of a temper. Takes an awful lot for me to loose my cool – unless you interrupt me! HAHA!

The other thing that fascinated me was the cool – headed thing. I was amazed at myself when I stopped to help at an auto accident scene. I was directing people on when and how to do what – like I actually knew what I was doing! Everyone else was running around like chickens without heads! I thought about going for EMT training but because it required SCHOOLING, I decided against it. I would’ve been good at it – I’m sure of it.

So, I guess it’s never too late! I will try one more thing one more time, although I have to say I am getting a little weary…..

I will let you know how things are going when I get back on meds. Looking forward to promising results!

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