Re: Still Skeptical

[Anonymous]

Jenn,

Great post… Read it 4 times to absorb its content the best I could. Of course all three times I extracted more and more from it……. But It muddled some of the information I read the times before…… I had been trained to read and re read and read it again…. I get it. Sure sometimes many “normal” brained persons need to do it that way occaisionaly but why do I need to do it everytime I try to read……… HMMMM just one of the many struggles for me Jenn. Unfortunately I had been trained that Meds unless absolutely necessary are BAAAAAAAADDDDDD. That said when is “absolutely necessary”?

Just as you said Jenn… There is no broken bones (although I had many from agressive sports and activity playing, and working as a contractor not performing tasks safely) No green heads (but mine was often spinning inside when expected to perform tasks my inner brain would not let me) to show others my mental injury and anguishes. I had to educate myself as I am 48 and only recently did persons outside my then circle tell me Hey! Get tested you are working way to hard!

I struggled tremendously and unfortunately I did not learn the basics of life as I skipped over them to just try to make as much money as I could as I was taught money was the salvation of life (maybe because of ADHD that was all that interested me and i became side tracked during the intricacies of money management and other important life necessities)………Sad part is I had successes but only because of really hard physical work and the vision afforded by my ADHD as the administrativel stuff I often ignored or left up to others and did not take the responsibility to learn the boring but ever so important administrative tasks ……….IIIIKESSSSSSS !!!!!!!. That lead to some great falls (as I have read other ADHDers on other posts here as well have gone through) I am so happy that many hear have inner circle persons that at least aknowledge (though often after times of many frustrations) there might be some truth about this ADHD thing. (I am stil trying to build a circle of understanding) Yes I am waving as well Jenn as It is through education and the sharing of related issues does someone like me “Get It”…….

I am moving forward slowly, maybe to slow for some but I need not to make the same errors in judgement I had before. For many around me they know it is out of character therefore radical as they even ponder if I am faking or trying to take advantage of this disease and the possible benefits and tools that might be afforded to me as deamed disabled by the professional and often scientifically trained community of mental health.

As a survivor of the many struggles I have had to deal with as one having the syndrome of ADHD. I will strive and thrive… eventually. And it might not be the same WIN in life i thought before the diagnosis of ADHD but I feel it may be more rewarding (Heck the rewards so far have really been crappy so it has to be better right!)…. Yes there are some great family persons in my life and I will try not to lean to hard although I have already possibly done so on them. I need to take charge of me through knowledge and the support of qualified and competant persons. Upon using all those tools afforded me “I” will make the final decisions as to what is right for me…….. and yes the correct medication at the correct dose is a definite need, want and desire for the right reason when it comes to me as part of the systematic solution to mine and only my ADHD issues.

Jenn as a fan of some of your posts….. Thank You

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