Hi Little Monkey,
I just saw this quote on facebook and thought of you, “Own your own feelings. Nobody else does. Accept that you don’t own the other person’s feelings. They do.” Deepak Chorpra
For sure easier said than done, but with practice, anything is possible. I saw another quote, I forget who said it, “Try something new three times. First to get over the fear of doing it, second to learn how to do it, and third to see if you like it.”
I’m having trouble logging into the webinar, I’II give it a third try 
Take care, Deb