the good news is that you don’t have to continue to be the victim of your past- your future can be different! confidence and trust are re-buildable, making and keeping friends are skills you can learn and practice, etc. practice and a good manual do wonders. 
if you can get some CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) from a professional, or even work through a program of personal growth from a quality library book, you’d be suprised (and very very pleased) with what you can create for yourself.
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