Re: What's the worst thing you have ever forgotten?

[Robbo]

Wow, it’s a strange combination of terror, bewilderment, and laughter reading these and being reminded of so many SERIOUSLY Traumatic things that have happened to me n the people in my life. My neighbor and her care-giver are both like us, I was so happy when I finally got the ADD & Loving it DVD that I couldn’t wait to bring it over and share it with them. Of course when I finally got around to it I couldn’t find it. Searched my apartment for almost 40 dang minutes, gave up cuz I know every time I loose something as soon as I stop looking for it, it just pops up right it front of my face. So I call, tell her, of course she understand n I go visit a while. Within 5 minutes of getting home I glanced over on top of the TV where I suspected I left it. Of course it was there. Accept it somehow slid back and was just barely hanging over the edge of the back of the TV, I donated 70 freaking bucks for that thing to PBS! grrrrr Do you guys sometimes become blinded by the trauma of loosing something important? like it gives us a case of the stupids or something? I remember the ones that make me nut up the most. I’ve filled my place with smoke a couple times. That’s not good when you live alone. Is over reacting part of the scenario for you guys also? I used to do that much more. Reading all this is doing a great job of keeping me from going back into denial about the our little problem. (Our big busy ADD brain)

I’m starting to wonder about trying a lower dosage of the marinol. (synthetic THC) I used to be convinced that the THC from pot was the reason I was so forgetful. It’s common knowlenge that pot smoking damages short term memory. But I’m wondering how many people here are willing to talk about how much pot they have smoked in the past or do smoke now. All the medication I take destroys my stomach and I almost never have an appetite, the marinol erases my stomach problems, probably because I can take much less of the opiates, maybe that’s what’s killing my apetite. Unfortunately like everything it comes with side affect…I was always forgetful way before I ever smoked weed. I won’t go back to smoking pot, that hurts me too much spiritually, I get disconnected from God, to me that’s The Most important part of my recovery, recovery from everything, life with ADHD mainly. But I’m wondering about going back to the Marinol at a lower dosage because it makes a huge difference with how well the pain medication I take works. The chronic pain from my SCI is extremely distracting, some days I feel like I may go into shock, seriously. It’s a puzzle I’ve been fighting to solve for more years than I want to think about. The biggest problem with all medications is the fact that I seem to build up a tolerance to just about everything. I’m worried that I’ll build up a tolerance to the Ritalin if I get put on a higher dosage today. It feels like an impossible puzzle to solve. And they just changed the doctors at the mental health care part of my GP’s office. So now I may have to start over with a different psychiatrist. MORE HOOPS to hop through! Maybe there should be another thread about all the ridiculous fears we have…

What a mess. I would give anything to just quit all the dang pills. Even the vitamins, Fish Oil, B-12, Gingko Biloba…. And TUMS, they taste good at least but I’m fed up with keeping track of all the different dang medications.

Thanks for giving me some great laughs this morning. I just remembered I have to call my GP doctor! so I’m gonna go do that. Cool huh? I have to call on monday morning to see this one cuz he’s the main guy at his practice, so it’s first come first serve on mondays and they only make appointments 2 weeks out. Sucks huh? Maybe they’re just doing that to me because I’ve been late and rescheduled so many times. I just thought about that…

Do you guys imagine conspiracies against you and feel like you may be paranoid sometimes?

What a Crap ass mess…. Ack!

Sorry, have a great day you guys.

Whelp, instead of editing/proofreading, I stopped and made the call to see my GP doc. couldn’t get an appointment but at least he’s gonna call me. I found out it wasn’t just me being picked on because I’ve been late n rescheduled so many times.

I’m in that short window of time when the ritalin is in my system and I feel less scrambled, it’s just now starting to really mellow me out. It’s so freaking weird that such a small pill can make me un-crazy. Centered. Almost like it’s too good to be true. And I don’t feel “high” that’s not how I want to feel. I want to feel connected with the rest of the world. And God as I understand him. If any of you guys are into prayer, say one for me about getting the right combination of medications today. To me, God hears us when we’re hoping for something good to happen. That’s a prayer. He know’s my heart, all of our hearts. And he gives us complete freedom, that’s why bad stuff happens to good people. Some of us take that freedom and do awful things with it.

I’m gonna go get some stuff done while I’ve got some initiative… First and foremost, meditate.

I forget to keep stuff short… Anyone noticed that about me? LOL

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