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I have been having the same problem.  I started taking Vyvanse probably 7 years ago.  The positive affects slowly started to deteriorate about two years ago.  Now they are only slightly better than not taking it at all.  Having six children, three diagnosed with ADHD, and one with bi-polar, I haven’t gathered up the courage to switch to something else.   Having watched my oldest struggle through med change after med change for two years, I have way to much responsibility to risk it.   I do think that hormones may have something to do with the change.  You going through chemical and hormone changes at your age can be similar to what I am going through at 47.  It is very frustrating!  I am not a stupid individual, however my memory can be so horrible.  People at work have to think I am on illegal drugs!  One minute I can enter and proof information and the next I can’t.  The worst is when I think that I have done  great job, only to find that it was the worst I had ever produced!!!  My doctor has tried to a couple of low dose medications that are suppose to have similar effects as the vyvanse. However, I don’t see a change in my memory or other problem areas with either one of them.  Are there any new medications out there?  Sometimes I think I am just not qualified to be my kids mom.  I work so hard, I barely sleep, and I still can’t keep on top of everything.  So I end up putting out constant fires.  When I get a chance to sit down and get organized, the amount of issues is just so defeating.  I fill a 500 page book with copies of all of the organization ideas, charts, behavior charts, chore charts, homework charts, and calendars.  I have killed so many trees from purchasing sticky notes and notepads.  I could fill multiple books with all of the projects I have started, day dreamed about starting, purchased the materials and never finished, wonder creative ideas that will forever by stuck in my brain.

I think part of the problem is that when I would get this over whelmed when I was younger (pre parenthood) I would cut loose and act irresponsible.  I no longer can responsibly  choose those actions.  (not altogether a bad thing).  The problem is that all of my “relaxers” are things that I can’t justify taking the time out for.  Not with out going hyper focused and dropping all of the systems that I am managing to hold together.  AHHHHH!  It is very frustrating and lonely.

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