[johnross]

Completely devastated my life. Destitution, depression, homeless, endless underachiever awards. This ADD mind is not all about cracking jokes at the local comedy club. Although it can be if you catch it early-on.

My hunch is that the Chronic Homeless population would have this faulty thinking in spades. As one ages, the neglect and incomplete projects take a massive toll on the self-image. It’s commonly known as Toxic Shame. Afterall, an entire life wasted with nothing to show of any real substance is undeniable even to the most delusional — at a certain age, you will look upon your life and wish to vomit.

Everything is unfinished. You will never be successful in any endeavour unless you actually complete what you start — great start, lousy finish is a hallmark of ADD ADHD. I actually have a trunk filled with unfinished screenplays, product ideas, concepts up the ying-yang. Brilliant. You know what? They don’t mean a damn thing. Useless. Although they may hint at talent, they are useless. Very haunting feeling.

Don’t take this lightly. Take corrective action immediately. Learn how to stay focused. Develop self-discipline. Finish what you start. Read and take ACTION. Don’t Take This Lightly. Have fun of course, but you must understand the results of un-bridled ADD ADHD and faulty thinking in general will truly deliver you a regretful human experience.

And now that you know, what will you choose? Will you deploy the tips/tricks/strategies/medications ? Or will you also loose interest in that as well? There’s the true test now that you know. You may even decide to put this off for awhile. Get back to it later maybe.

I say that as someone who hits 50 years old… devastated and destroyed. Former newspaper editor, copywriter and smartass self-medicator for many years.  Potential unrealized is a terrible legacy — I wish I could turn back the clock and Begin Again.

But for now, because I now know, I’ll stay focused on small do-able tasks with a Dollar Store Egg Timer and hope like hell I can rise above Toxic Shame to see into next week. Giving-up is no longer an option. Although it seemed like a good one for 50 years.

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