[ladyviking48]

Hi Apothecia, I’m Vikinglady48! I’m here for moral support.I struggled alot at school too! After struggling for almost 2 yrs I bumped one of my courses and still managed to graduate with the rest. But I got the feeling all along that gee I know that school is supposed to be hard..but this is ridiculous! I would be sitting in the library sometimes at 9pm which was pointless because i dont have alot of mental energy past 6pm, maybe for reviewing work. I spent my 1st months at school with help organizing my projects in tutors office at lunch, sometimes ide use accomodations for exams in a quieter room.Sometimes didnt need it. I had a hard time the 2nd year because i took the more condensed courseload for that yr of studies.Its hard to work & do a good job at school, pay rent etc.real world.Somebodys always got an opinion at school.Just ignore teachers/people who act as though we are lazy.thats a mistake. Trouble with organization and lack of speed is not lazy.Different is ok, not less. If i could go back i would get extra student loans to help with rent, take even 1 less course each semester if possible.Having ADHD definitely can make going to school harder.All i ever wanted was to have the same opprtunity to suceed at school as everyone else.Not extra.I asked one teacher to use a personal recorder & listen to everything including his instruction on way home on bus. Relistening as needed.my lowest was a C. But it felt defeating knowing i was smart enough to understand the work but had difficulty presenting it on time. With enough time to process it i wouldve done better. The classic A’s & F’s report cards have more to with school rules and teachers than intellegence. Why is faster better. The schools run theses excelerated programs,fast paced programs.if we’re all paying the same money why can’t there be a little more time given without having to be made to feel like a second class citizen because of a different learning speed. I enjoyed your rant, I’m with you as many here are too and wish you the best in your courses. Somebody will see your gifts and appreciate you.It’ll be worth it. Dont forget to take short breaks.clear your head. All the best! Vikinglady48

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Halobender i really meant to mention your words are heard and taken to heart.We are here together.# metoo

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Hello halobender.well I’m new on this site also.I think I only made 1 other post.I’ve mostly been reading other people’s stories. Thanks for sharing.Your post seemed to help me take the plunge and just post.you really hit home some of the feelings I experience. As that add guy said to be here is among friends.I feel like we can all share even vent a little here.Seems like many of us have struggles with our add/adhd. I too write novels.I also grow bored and impatient when reading, sometimes listening. I get bored and ‘cut to the chase’ skipping chapters or skimming book chapters from back to front. I have difficulty organizing my thoughts in a clear concise manner and I know it. Trying really hard for a thought or piece of work to be respectable and decipherable and “good enough” may be disguised as perfectionism.Or boredom. It seems to take me more mental energy to do mental tasks the later the day gets. I’m no good after 6pm. Less hi thinking tasks then.Especially if its a busy work day or if I’ve had to pretend to be somebody else for 8 hrs, and be “on” at my job dealing with lots of people and changing situations.once I get home I can be myself.Im best off having wind down time. I’m not particularly fond of crowds for long periods.I prefer my regular people/ friends for shorter visits.I also procrastinate projects especially ones that are not paid.My thoughts race like a bobsled which hops over to the other lane on its own.I have tapes of negativity that i tell myself that remind me of my deficits.I try not to listen to those thoughts.Sometimes I interupt people randomly,mostly cause i’m excited to say something that connects me to what the other person is saying..not to compete or, not that i dont care what the person said. I try really hard not to at work.We know there are rules we need to follow to get along with everyone in life:at work, at school, relationships in general. Sometimes it takes lots of mental energy to do it.I also feel like I am going to be unmasked. Everyone will know about my deficits, feelings of inadequacy,being overwhelmed, confusion with communication, lonliness. (Even if you can’t see my struggles within.)I try hard just to keep up with everyday living tasks.Sometimes trying to keep life organized,on time, family visited, cared for, work done,yes I feel not good enough,effective enough, tidy enough. Like the gig is up.. the fear of being unmasked. Well halobender and add guy Somehow just letting this information out to others who can understand feels very good. I feel like maybe we are all here for a reason. Maybe this is where we realize we are allowed to be who we are and it is ok. Were all on a journey, all trying to learn and improve and find some new ways to cope and find acceptance of our good and valuable gifts and traits plus accept some of our weaknesses. Build on our gifts and strengths.my motto is different is ok.I dont wanna be like everyone else.

Thanksfor sharing and letting me share! Ladyviking48

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It sounds like we are not alone in our struggles to get through the holiday storm.The holidays sometimes feel like a whirlwind of happy (when your ahead of the game shopping,visiting, planning and preparing);only to realize that its only now 5 days til the big day whatever that is. In my life we’re a family of 4 people with Adhd: myself husband and 2 kids & it can be overwhelming.To make things less stressful weve taken on the new motto that “Less Is Less” we have cut back on trying to make every single work,family& friends function and cut back on buying endless gifts for people who have everything and would really prefer spending time together.This was a much better holiday for us.We got to the gathegings we could manage while still having our bearings.we stayed as long as we were still having fun.we played more games and visited more. We scaled back on gifts and brought a bunch of necessities to the homeless shelter.More enjoyment was had by not buying into the whole commercial Christmas BS. We chose to put less on our plates mentally so we could enjoy our family time. This is my first post.It’s nice to hear about everyone elses journey.Best wishes to everyone!

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