memzak, I’m glad to hear that you’ve been writing. I too am a writer, though, the thought of actually taking on such a long, and detailed process as writing a book makes my head spin. I write exceptionally well in short essay form, but when it comes to developing any kind of extended story arch or rhetorical argument, my brain seems to shut off completely. not to mention the fact that wrapping up and finalizing projects proves almost impossible for me.
also, right now in school I am taking a class called “God, Evil, and Suffering” that deals a lot with the question of free will – mostly as a means of supporting the argument in classical theism of a “perfectly good” deity. I am learning now that the degree to which my own will rarely feels “free” is actually a result of ADHD, and this new knowledge really reflects and validates my experience. often throughout my entire life I have said that it feels as though I have “no willpower,” which is usually met with the same refrain we hear so often that it is simply a matter of “not trying.”
I worked in human services for a number of years and I was always amazed at how relieved clients were to hear that someone understands how little logic, reason, and will have to do with healing and progress when it comes to mental health. if simply “deciding” to “let it go” or “just stop” or “just do it” were that simple, we’d have all been cured ages ago. but, it’s not – it’s all a process and progress is slow.
okay, I’m rambling, and my boyfriend was kind enough to give me a little ribbing about how the many, many unfinished projects I’ve got laying around here (he never makes me feel ashamed, only helps with structure). so, I should probably get to seeing about that.
but, memzak, I look forward to hearing more about your work as it progresses, and if you ever wanted feedback from an objective reader, I’d be happy to help! 