[kristya]

I’m getting my master’s and found out my second year when my ability to compensate wasn’t enough anymore. I desperately needed help and didn’t know what was wrong until I randomly found a questionnaire about ADHD. Someone asked me if I had ADHD earlier but I said no and had been tested as a child. Apparently, I was just taken to a doctor who didn’t really know about ADHD and at that time women were thought to mostly not have it. My tutor, a special ed person, in the 1st grade thought I did, but only a mild case. I was jumpy and fidgety but not like the boys of my age with ADHD.

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I did learn about that when I went to Costa Rica and my camera got wet. Wish I would have known about it before for my previous phone. I was really tempted when my last phone died to get a heavy-duty, you-can-run-it-over-and-it-will-still-work phone, but it was too expensive… I may have ended up loosing it anyway.

Does anybody else hate touch phones? Those seem to break really easily. However, the ipod nanos with the touch screens are pretty hardy. I dropped my in the snow in my apartment parking lot. Two months later I found it after about two feet of snow, and God knows what else, melted over it. The snow plow had missed it and nobody had ran over it. It still worked just fine after I found it for about 1 1/2 years. As a joke we called it “Kristya proof” generation of iPod.

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The most expensive thing for me isn’t paying off bills on time (for some reason, I’m pretty good about that). It’s more of the replacing things I break on accident, replacing everything I lose (which is a lot), replacing my clothes/shoes/jackets/electronics/etc that seem to have an unfairly short half-life in my possession, and the impulsive buying that gets me……

On a similar note, apparently phones don’t like water……

Also, have you ever destroyed a jacket by melting it? Yeah, that wasn’t a good day for me. The kicker is that it was in front of my in-laws!

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[kristya]

Oh! I read the label on my medication wrong and that’s was why I was confused. I think. I have the generic versions and the XR says dextroamp-amp and the IR says amphetamine salts which I’m now thinking are two different ways to say the same thing. I asked my doctor about it and she said the difference maybe in the way the molecules are cleaved.

She either didn’t understand the chemical make-up behind the two (I don’t expect every doctor to know every medication off hand) or it was the way I asked the question. She also said it could be that my system handles a large dose all at once really well but not over an extended period? I’m not quite sure.

At any rate, I’ve continued to go down hill in the past two days, doing things that I haven’t done in two months. For instance, I got a locker at my library to store my stuff in during the day when I’m running in between lab, class, and working out and proceeded to lose the key to it in about an hour. I then spent two hours trying to find it in my backpack only to discover it was in my pocket . It was a waste and I really needed to work on things. That was very common place for me two months ago (pretty much every 30mins-give or take-I would be looking for something). Focus, among other things, has also gotten worse. Granted it’s still way better than not using adderall, but it has definitely been getting harder. I never want to go back to having to deal with all the anxiety associated with losing everything, forgetting important lab work and school stuff, and not being able to “hear” in or “read” for classes!!!!

I hoping that after I make it through these last two weeks and when I’m less stressed my medication will start working better.

Do you have any suggestions or tricks? Is there anything that worked for you?

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[kristya]

I really agree. Thank you for commenting! I thought that maybe my story would help others to get tested, as well as make me feel less alone.

Also, I realized I had been using those thoughts as a kind of sad motivator. It was like I had to prove to myself and others that I wasn’t stupid and could do it, but I still felt bad after I had finished my project because I struggled so much. Getting diagnosed allowed me to open up a fresh box of tools, rather than using the same broken ones I had used for so long.

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