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finally saw an actual psychiatrist last Monday. He says that while I show many symptoms of ADHD, he’s pretty sure I also have bipolar 2 disorder, and he wants to treat that first, see which symptoms are being caused by which disorder. All in all he seemed pretty knowledgeable, and was very professional about everything. I’ve been on Depakote for a week now, and haven’t really noticed any changes, other than falling asleep a lot easier (of course, the main side affect is drowsiness) and being groggier for a longer time when I first wake up in the morning. Although, once I get up and moving and start in on the caffeine, it’s easier to get the munchkin ready for day care and get myself ready for work, so maybe it IS working just a little bit. Doc said it’d take a couple weeks before I notice any real improvements, but even if this is all I get from it, it’s worth taking one pill every night if it helps me get to sleep and eases the morning scatterbrain.

The wife says I’ve been more emotional than usual, but we’re also having some financial issues this month, so it’s hard to tell what’s just normal stress and what’s the meds. Next appointment in a month. Again, thanks for all the info and support.

DW

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Oh, yeah…forgot about the books. Lots and lots of books! As many books as I can get my grubby little mitts on! Fantasy, Sci-Fi, military/espianoge thrillers, anything about physics, astronomy, or cosmology (yeah, I’m a nerd LOL). Also love to role-play (tabletop, not mmorpgs–I DO NOT WoW) Also, designing things in my mind. For instance, I’m working on a Boba Fett costume for Halloween (and GenCon, and any other convention the wife and I happen to wander into LOL). Designed a backpack cooling system to prevent overheating while I’m wandering around Indianapolis in full Mandalorian battle armor in August at Gencon.

ALWAYS designing things. Tools, machines, costume props, anything with moving parts. LOVE that sort of thing! Guess that’s self-medicating too, eh? LOL

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Cigarettes and Diet Mountain Dew (by the gallon)

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Well, had my appt yesterday…didn’t see an actual psychiatrist yet. Spent an hour answering questions with a therapist. She was really nice, very understanding, and seemed to have quite a bit of experience with adult ADD. Another appt next Friday to gather more info, then she says she’ll set me up with a psychiatrist after that.

Not a bad experience at all. So far, so good.

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Very well written!

I could’ve written it myself, except for the last two lines (although 18 years ago, I smoked my fair share of those left-handed cigarettes myself over the summer).

>>Don’t know where to begin so

I guess I’ll put it off again.

I don’t believe I can so

I never stick with the plan.

How do I stay on task when help

is so hard for me to ask?<<

This part rings especially true for me. The hardest part of any task for me is deciding where to start, and then keeping with it until it’s done.

Keep writing your poetry. This one’s quite good.

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Toofat…

I love to write, and when I get inspired and sit down at the keyboard, the hyperfocus kicks in within minutes. Next thing I know, It’s about 14 hours later, I have to pee like a racehorse, and I have a 32-page short-story written. Gotta love that!

Creativity comes pretty easily for me…about 12 times a minute, like a lot of other ADDers, I suspect. I’ve come up with creative solutions for all sorts of problems. For instance, helping my dad change out the transmission on his Ford Ranger. We didn’t have a transmission jack, but we *did* have a bunch of old 2 X 4’s lying around, so I stacked a bunch of ’em up, laid 2 more over top of the fulcrum I’d just made, stuck ’em under the trans, and bada-bing, bada-boom, we got the transmission in the truck! Took about 10 minutes, and this after Dad spent about 4 hours struggling to get the damn thing in with a regular floor jack.

Halloween costumes are where my creativity really gets a chance to shine through. I can whip together a bad-ass costume at the last minute for about 30 bucks, and I’m getting compliments all night long. Making monster dummies is pretty easy, too. Fact is, I love doing that sort of thing, taking a bunch of old junk and kitbashing up a mad scientist, complete with a moving head, bubbling beakers, and an electrical console with working gauges! Hyperfocus helps out a lot there, too.

As hard as it can be to get through the work day, things like that make it all worthwhile.

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Good ideas, kc5. I think I’ll do that, and I’ll ask her to come to the doc with me. Actually, I have a bit too many questions to fit on my wrist, so I’m gonna have to remember to bring my notebook. Course, I can write “NOTEBOOK!” on my wrist to remind me…

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Thank both of you for your responses.

Kc5jck, I have indeed been “crash course” educating myself over the last…guess it’s been two weeks, now, since I had my conversation with the Dr. Reading the blogs and forums on this site is like reading my own biography at times, and I’ve started to wonder at how strong my wife must be, considering the behaviors she’s having to put up with from me.

The list of questions is an excellent idea, I’ll definitely be doing that (assuming I can still find the list Friday morning lol). I’m sure I can think of four or five for her

Thanks again, guys

Oh, by the way…is there any way to set up a signature for my posts on this site?

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