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Ok, thanks @blackdog-gie. =) I think she mumbled something about buying them for me.

I lived on roast beef-sandwiches in the sommar of ’12. That and water melon. Chips. 😀

I have a three week-pill box that I bought on ebay for my meds. It’s really clever, ebcause you see if you have taken them or not. This one!

http://www.ebay.com/itm/21-Slot-7-Day-Colorful-Pill-Tablet-Drug-Box-Case-Organizer-Container-Holder-/121209799637?pt=LH_DefaultDomain_0&hash=item1c38aac3d5

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I take Eye Q at the moment, witch is Omega 3 and 6. Not sure if it helps the ADD-symtoms, but it makes my belly feel a lot better. Both Venlafaxine and Strattera are messing with it.

I take vitamin D when I remember to. Now that we are trying for a baby, my mom tells me to start eating some stuff, something called folsyra in Swedish.

I have had a really difficult time eating well the last couple of years. My depression removed all appetite, and I had to force myself to eat something, anything. Still have that feeling sometimes.

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So, we are three, possibly four, raving lunatic leftie commies in this little forum. Awesomeness!

Sweden is about to blow up, lemme tell you! Last weekend, a bunch of nazis were waiting for a couple of people who had been to a 8th of March-celebration, and attacked them with knives. One of the men attacked is still in a coma in hospital. The police, government and media are calling it a brawl, and not attempted murder. Media is going crazy rapporting about violence from the left, when what happened is the exact opposite.

People all over the world are sending their best wishes to him, which is good to see: https://www.facebook.com/kaempakamrater?fref=ts

A new feminist party, F!; is getting new members like crazy. I believe things are about to change here, people are waking up.

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Say what @kc5jck!? Did you just google that? =)

Anyhow; I would never. I think of the children! And the drunks trying to set it aflame with lighters. And everybody who thinks they could do it with a bow and arrow. =)

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The weirdest, happiest thing just happened! The city library in my town (Gävle) just called and expressed an interest in me! I have an interview on the 25th. 😀

Life. So weird.

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That is how I like ’em: raging and communists! @sdwa

That is very true, about homelessness. How are you supposed to get your life together if you don’t even have a steady point to call home?

And thank you! I am quite amazed at the effect. I find myself with nothing to do at this time in the morning and freak out a bit about being restless and not useful. it’s a change, for sure. 🙂

 

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I know the feeling of your home being the only secure place! Maybe that is it for you as well. Now that you have a baby to protect, all your energy goes into that task and you can’t deal with people and stuff. Not sure how to get over that, except go out really prepared, maybe bring the father or another family member with you when you go out? Start small and up the ante when you feel ready.

Hope this passes soon! I think it will!

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Oh wow, I’ve always done that lip- and inside of mouth-chewing thing! Also I use my nails and teeth to go after my poor tongue. Wonder why that is so comforting? It never feels worth it when the pain comes afterwards. But then again, instant rewards are the only rewards worth having. 🙂

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Why thank you, @blackdog! I am quite happy about that little speech.

And I agree with you, being on welfare does not prepare you for going back to being a worthy human being. I had to apply for it when I became severely depressed, because as a student you have no rights, basically. Not to a-kassa (unenployment benefit) or the sjukförsäkring (health insurance benefit thingy.)

Anyway, after having turned in about 60 different documents and having met with a social worker, I was found to be in need of the welfare. Don’t know how much you get in the U.S, but here they pay your rent, electricity, some meds, insurances and then you get an amount to live on. 600 bucks, it translates into. Had to pay for food, telephone, broadband, transportation and everything else. Remember everything is more expensive here. =) I had to empty my wardrobe and home of everything of value to even get by. This while being suicidal. Not fun. Not encouraging in any way. After six months I went back to school even though I was far from ready. Also got a job at the college library here in town and worked nights and saturdays. Not sure how I managed, but I got by.

I will always be a leftie. I will always believe in the people, in supporting and helping each other. That makes what is happening in Sweden, and Europe, even the more frightening, as racist and even nazi parties make their way into the governments. How can we have possibly forgotten what happened here not even a hundred years ago? Frightens the living daylights out of me.

Enough with the politics for now. 🙂

This is day seven on Strattera, I am still doing well. Sleeping normally, waking up happy. I have energi and patience. I clean and organize a lot at home, and I am currently working on a job application for a job I would really like, as a librarian responsible for the children over 12, teens, young adults, students and immigrants learning Swedish. This is in a smaller town 30 km away, but the bus ride only takes 20 minutes. I am already working extra there, so it would be just amazing. I also think they would be ok with me and my ADD.
How is everyone else doing?
 

 

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Yeah, coming up with a good topic name was hard. Recently I decided to stop caring about every little sentence I write being perfect, and just let go of that need. Takes too long to be perfect all the time.

The question is if you want to look at people as a whole or as individuals. Do you want them to be treated as equals or differently according to class or capability?

For me, I’d rather live in a community where people care about each other, about everybody.  Where we are allowed our weaknesses and different strengths. Where we work together towards common goals, not as individuals competing.

I would love to be able to work full time, but have learned the hard way that the way i am is not appreciated or respected, and that stress and being uncomfortable kills me, so to speak. You may call it weakness, i call it the reality of  my condition.

I know Sweden and the US are very different, in mentality and otherwise. We watch American Idol and laugh at the fools who think they can sing because they have been taught that they can to anything. You wonder why we pay taxes and let the government decide things for us.

Having different opinions is a part of life, and hearing other’s can be quite rewarding. Please don’t feel afraid to write, it is awesome to hear what you all have to say!

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Taxes are a bit higher, i guess, but this is included;

if your meditations cost more than 340 usd a year, you don’t pay any more than that.

Doctors appointments are always 30 usd, and if you pay 170 usd in a year, that is it.

Child care services are provided for every one, and you pay based on income.

School lunches are payed by taxes.

No fees for higher education. Students can get a special loan to live on, and part of it is given to you.

The parental insurance! Stay at home with your small children and get money based on income.

Can not write more now, iPad is Messing with me. Auto correct sucks in the wrong language.

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I have to say I think this was more to do with the Concerta being new to you than with the coffee icecream. You should expect weird side effects for the first few weeks or so. I am sorry if your doctor did not inform you of this!

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@sdwa Yes, but this year is election year, and hopefully the Socialdemokrater will get to form a new sitting government with the leftist party and other unevil parties. People are beginning to understand that the American model is not so great for the working classes or for anyone who is not wealthy.

U.S. economy and politics are very sad. People working 3 jobs and still not getting by! Insane.

Anyway. back to me me me. 😉 It feels like the Strattera is already doing good stuff! I am energetic and not mindnumbingly tired. I have the energy to do boring stuff, like google everything and clean. Even took the whiny cat out for his first spring stroll.

I am eager to hear what others here do to increase your quality of life. Meds, Omega 3, exercise, food, what else? Internet withdrawal is not an option for me. 🙂

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Åhå, like you did on facebook before! @blackdog

Are you named from Churchill’s name for his depression?

Yeah, maybe it would translate to “Attention deficit disorder” or something.

I am also trying Melatonin for my sleep problems. Funny thing was that the doctor told me to buy it online from abroad in future, as that is cheaper. You need a prescription for it here. ( I almost wrote recipy- same word in Swedish. =))

I think I’ll start a new thread now as the diagnosis has been made.

See ya there! =)

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LOL!

But you are right, curlysue, I was a wellbehaved child in school, for the most part. Tantrums and being exhausted at home instead.

Right now it’s 7:40 in the morning and I’ve been awake for an hour. Just got up and cleaned the kitchen. Brain really awake. Also have a headache, but not like when I started on Venlafaxine and spent the whole day crying from the pain, in bed. I guess my body and brain are all like: “Seriously? You’re gonna mess EVEN MORE with the noradrenaline up in here?!”

Maybe you call it Norepinephrine, btw.

I can’t say that being awake at a reasonable hour for a change feels that bad. =)

Over to blackdog! (how to tag?)

Yeah, I love RuPaul. And the queens. And the show. Gets you thinking about gender roles and how constructed they really are. I mean, these men are better at being a woman than I am!

Dystopia, yes. Do read Divergent, it’s a good one. Here are some others:

*Enclave by Ann Aguirre.

*Graceling, Kristin Cashore.

*The Maze runner, James Dashner.

*Ender’s Game, of course.

*Delirium, Lauren Oliver.

*A bit more on the fantasy side. but still fun and imaginative: Cassandra Clare’s novels: City of… and Clockwork…

*The Forest of Hands and Teeth, Carrie Ryan.

As you see, I could go on. Maybe these will do for now. 🙂

 

 

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