Category : Emotions
In my twenties, I used to get “upset about being upset” regularly. My attention issues would get in the way of my intentions and instead of facing them head-on, I would send myself into a state of frustration fueled by feelings of guilt.
My moods are too often driven by my failures and successes or, perceived failures, which are many, many more than my actual failures. And, there are few successes after which I actually pause, notice, acknowledge, and celebrate.
Before I understood my ADHD, when I’d make small mistakes and they were pointed out, I’d often brush them off, miffed, ‘Whatever! You get the point.’ I felt like, ‘I’ve created the Mona Lisa for God’s sake, who cares if the frame has a chip in it!? Nitpickers! Critics! Complainers!’ By the way being ‘overly sensitive’ and ‘prone to drama’ are very common for many of us.
Your ability to pay attention, problem solve, plan, and regulate your emotion is managed in part by certain chemicals in your brain. One of these important chemicals is Dopamine. Studies suggest that an ADHD brain does not release or reload dopamine effectively, which leads to problems with all of those executive function activities listed above that we need to use on a daily basis.