I have been thinking about the misuse of adult ADHD medication.
I’m referring to the official, approved, doctor prescribed, legally obtained medications, stimulant and otherwise.
Like 99% of people with ADHD who eventually try medication, I was reluctant to rely on a ‘crutch.’ I was worried I’d become addicted, that it would kill my creativity, turn me into a hop-head. Actually, I’m not even sure what that is, except they used it a lot in 1940’s detective movies.
DOCTOR JEKYLL AND MR. RICK
I was afraid that my doctor was going to push pills on to me.
I was concerned that the pharmaceutical companies were going to get me hooked.
I was afraid I would no longer be ‘Rick’.
I had a thousand concerns.
So, my doctor answered my questions. He assured me that a mild stimulant would not make me an addict, and that none of his clients who work in ‘creative fields’ reported it impacting their creativity.
I gingerly gave medication a try.
That is, I gave official, approved, doctor prescribed, legally obtained medications at try. I was already self medicating
with overwork, constant novelty seeking, adrenaline, and vats of caffeine.
IT WORKED. WHY ASK MORE QUESTIONS?
For me, medication
made a big difference. Shocking in a way. I was able to sit and finish my tax paperwork. The first time that happened was mind-boggling. I felt like I’d won the Indy 500. I wanted to open a bottle of champagne and spray my pit crew while Miss Goodyear Tires presented me with my trophy. Magic pills! My doctor was right. I was still creative. I wasn’t addicted. I actually felt more like myself rather than less.
And so I stopped asking questions.
YOU MAY HAVE ADHD IF…
I didn’t read the pamphlet that came with the medication
. Boring, right. Didn’t even glance at it. Typically ADHD of me, I know. I didn’t keep up on the latest information.
So I had no idea that having orange juice in the morning would negate the effect of my particular medication. When someone mentioned this during a conversation, and everyone but me was nodding, “Yeah, it ruins the uptake.” “That’s right.” Holy smoke!
WHY WASN’T I TOLD?
How come I didn’t know this?
What else don’t I know?
Why didn’t my doctor tell me?
Why didn’t the pharmacist warn me?
Why didn’t the drug company inform me?
And then I saw the common thread in all of these thoughts… me.
Why hadn’t I made the effort to find out? Here we have created this website, TotallyADD, full of the best experts. It is a treasure trove of insight and information. Why am I NOT using it?
We so often complain about irresponsible doctors, companies, and organizations, but I’m embarrassed to say, the one weak link in the chain, the irresponsible one, is not a doctor or a drug company.