[redarno]

Hi,

Im not sure i should be the one answering to you, cause you seem to be already in a better place than i currently am, but your message really spoke to me.

The part about no one understanding, you are uber-right. It’s the same for me, i can try to explain it as clearly as i can i always get the “ok, you’re just a dumbass” look. May it be family or the short timed friends i had.

I don’t post here very often but this forum will help you a lot, as you will finally find people who will understand your struggles. As cliche and self righteous as it may sound, I do understand.

About shutting yourself into an introvert, when you’re really the opposite. I think everyone here does understand, even if we’re all different “ADHDs” in the end.

I also feel the same about no one i know having my back. So maybe, in the end, you are the one to have your own. I’m kind of cutting everyone away right now, not in a hateful and bitter way, but just…it feels like it’s the right thing to do to preserve my sanity. That really bugs me when i hear stuff like “you can’t do this alone”, cause, what if you have to?

 

Anyway, he next part, you will maybe not like, but about all those questions you’re asking yourself, I recently purchased this CBT book

http://totallyaddshop.com/products/the-adult-adhd-tool-kit#.VXL1qEYT-Uk

It feels to me like, if you take those 6 months for yourself, that is a must-read, as it really explains a lot about how we are who we are.

They kind of dissected our procrastination process, and a lot of other stuff too. Since you seem very set on changing stuff, I think  you will find the answers to a lot of questions you have. It is not an easy read though^^

I’m hoping this was at least encouraging if not helpful, but i wish you the best.

 

Force et Honneur !

 

 

 

 

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[redarno]

It seems that the way you see it depends on wether you have control over it or it controls you.

It demands a lot of work to get to the right mindset.
It still sucks most of the time to me 🙂
for now i guess

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[redarno]

@ dithl

Omg i hadn’t even noticed you replied haha

Do you remember what you wanted to say in the first place?

And this happens to me way too much^^
I usually keep the notepad open so i can copy/paste the message because the firefox has a crashing habit with me too

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[redarno]

@sar316

thanks for the advice
about excelling ,i completely agree with you here,
i put myself such high standards i can’t help comparing with others’ work without giving myself the time to progress

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[redarno]

Thanks for the reply

Its just as you said, nothing can really keep me down for good either and i have learned stuff in therapy that keeps me from going under again too fast…

Youre right when you say that the important thing is to reach out which i don’t usually do because i think everyone here has their own load of bs to cope with

But just putting my frustration into words helped me a lot and im glad that i did ,just that made me feel better And so did your words

But the forgiving part is hard lol

Guess i still have some work to do…

Thanks for replying

It helps to know that someone get it 🙂

Good luck to you too

 

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[redarno]

I know what you mean, sometimes it feels the ground is cracking under your feet and the next day everything is so ‘bright and shiny’ but reality always catches up.

Im the same with projects, did I advance in it or not, it’s VERY difficult for me to get back to it the next day and i end up doing something else… Or nothing

 

 

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[redarno]

What Wgreen just said.

It seems to me that neurotypicals seem to have the ability

to take waht they feel and transform it into something else.

I don’t know  if it’s adhd, but i for one can’t .

I just take this personnal hell in ,over and over, and it’s slowly consuming my time here.

It feels time, as life, is completely out of my grasp no matter how hard i try.

Not to mention the social afflictions.

I am of the kind who can’t finish a sentence without going mindblank and it makes me want to disappear everytime.

But yeah totally a gift. *Sarcasm self test completed*

In the end it just feels like you’re fucked , i don’t know how you guys manage to cope with it.

Seriously, i’m sorry if i sound aggressive or out of place (well that would be a surprise) but i guess i wish i could see it as such

 

 

 

 

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[redarno]

“oh crap, i totally forgot !”

“i’ll deal with that bill later”

“what?”

Hello four times to the same person on the very same morning(i has problems with faces.)

“that appointment was today?”

 

“I had a terrible education. I attended a school for emotionally disturbed teachers.” — Woody Allen

i repost that one just because. It’s excellent

 

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@ Takingbacktyler

sorry i hadn’t seen your post…

 

No on the contrary it does not piss me off, it’s good too hear that it’s not hopeless.

But it’s true it might be time to re evaluate , as you said, what i feel like doing with my life.

Thanks for listening

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[redarno]

Thanks for your answer and welcome !

It’s nice

 

For the concerta, it’s the real thing, 54 mg/pill and i take 2 on the morning but i really don’t see much difference…

That was the dose i was given from the start, but i heard somewhere that the effects can actually be cancelled if the dose is too high…but even at just 54 mg there seem to be no effect.

 

The point is i live in france and it seems doctors are really outdated when it comes to ADD :

the neurologist who prescribed me the meds only knows of these two drugs so i don’t really know where to look next…

 

And btw thanks for the “Bill’s ADDventures” links, yes i really needed that^^

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