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  • in reply to: Fast track to my add story #121961

    jojosephine
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    I think your wife cold called me for SEO services lol.

    You have to figure out how you can do that (get in front of business owners and CEO’s). Could you right up proposals and put together presentations and approach them? How do you find out about companies that are suffering? And what could be incentives to get them to listen to you? And you don’t want them to just take your ideas and run with them. How do you protect yourself against that.

    maybe you could start up a “start-up business” consultant business.

    Your life sounds just like mine except different setting, scenes, character and subjects.

    I can’t wait to sit down and right out my adulthood. and just how long that story would be. All the failed ideas and relationships.

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    in reply to: Euphoria from Dex, good or bad? #121958

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    I really have to bring this back. Dr. J sums up what the term is. However, I am now extremely confused as to what this medication (Vyvanse) is suppose to do.

    “The Antidepressant Effect”-I don’t know if what I am experiencing.  Is euphoria or is it what “normal” feels like.

    I feel really happy and content with things, and very self confident.

    I am not really as motivated and focused as i would like to be.

    Without meds I feel a fog and get easily frustrated and irritated. I am very negative and I have extreme self esteem issues which leads to jealousy and other negative characteristics. Always a pessimistic too.

    Is this what normal feels like or am I overdosed and high?

     

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    in reply to: Finally off nicotine after 28-1/2 years!!! #121956

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    Thank you. It feels incredibly great to have quit. Especially if you asked me a year ago. I thought it impossible even though I really didn’t want to. I didn’t smoke a lot maybe 5-8/day.

    Ya, it really bothered me that my husband smokes (not so much anymore-it is his choice i guess). I think it was because I had quit and plus how angry, irritable and negative I was. Oh ya smoking in the house and in front of the kids are forbidden and definitely not in the car. It is not right that your husband exposes you to second had smoke in the car (even if the windows are open). BTW, coughing, sputtering, glowering, waving your hand around and complaining only makes him want to do it more.  I know from personal experience. Addictions are selfish, you should have just said that to a brick wall. Please don’t feel unloved. He won’t care that it kills you at the moment when he really wants that cigarette. Maybe if you are in critical condition and he actually sees the true physical effect of it and a professional tells him it is due to second hand smoke.

    The crankiness really bothers me. It kind of triggers my irritability.

     

    My husband reeks. I can’t believe I stunk like that. He thinks that spraying himself with cologne or chewing gum masks it. It actually accentuates it.

     

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    in reply to: Finally off nicotine after 28-1/2 years!!! #121951

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    It also took me a lot longer to smoke a cigarette. If I was every having a smoke with someone, they would just suck that thing back so fast. Most of the time I would have to, sadly, end my smoke time halfway through.

    I find that my husband is always in a hurry to go and I know the underlying reason because he needs a smoke, always. I am so glad I don’t have that dependency on cigarettes. It really can make you an undesirable person.

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    in reply to: The Rush of Creativity & My Workaholic Binge #121950

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    That is the toughest thing about my industry, Multimedia Design (graphic design, animation, video etc) and of course, the people who are demanding it (and not creating it always gives an unreasonable deadline). Non-creative people don’t understand that that you just can’t pull a great design idea out of thin air at any given moment. That is way I quit my job and had to go freelance. I hated going into work and sitting there for days not being able to create. I forced designs that took hours and the final result was less favorable (in my mind). It really bothered me that I was forced to sit at a desk, when I could have been doing something else more productive in my life. I ended up coming up with ideas on evenings and weekends (that I wasn’t being paid for).

    The bottom line is: My best creative work comes quickly but at any given time. After a while, I just sit and stare at the computer screen and zone right out and my productivity goes right down the drain.

     

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    in reply to: Finally off nicotine after 28-1/2 years!!! #121942

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    @Rick

    oh ya before I lit up a cigarette everything had to be just right. I needed a beverage (not necessarily alcohol, just something wet). I needed to be not to warm or cold. The lighting had to be just right. I think I knew that one day I would never have a cigarette again. Almost like I needed to enjoy every one like it would be the last.

    I never realized how much other people needed as a quick fix stress reliever. I did always think it was strange my husband needed to pull over on the way up to the cottage for a smoke. Wouldn’t he rather get up there sit on the deck, over look the sunset reflecting off the lake, and then have a nice smoke and a drink?

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    in reply to: You'll grow out of it…. #121922

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    Yes I have learned a lot from this site. Thank you 🙂

    mmmm I wonder if it was my mom knew it lasted into adulthood. I will have to ask her. Even though she claims not to remember much about it.

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    in reply to: Here we go #121918

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    @blackdog

    lol Oh I don’t do it. That is what I am suppose to do…that is what I am hoping my treatment will help me do.

    ya it is ridiculous. and I get so angry when my husband comes in and has the kitchen clean in 15 minutes. The other day, he came home from work. I said ‘I cleaned the kitchen and then we went outside to play’. he indicated at the kitchen and said “you did?? [clean the kitchen]” It’s true. when I looked over at the kitchen it was messy.  WTF I did clean. for a long time and it looked the same lol.

    Anyways so it is now 2:50pm on the 3rd day by 1pm I had all my symptoms of ADD back (and worse), I am tired, and extremely irritable. I had to get home immediately. Everything/everyone was making me angry. and the road rage. I can’t do anything productive. I really think this might be an under dosage thing.

    I really can’t go another day like this. I would rather not be on medication at all. I am considering going to the 30mg 2 days earlier.

    I have read a lot in forums of people being on a lot higher dosages and having an afternoon IR booster. Also, a lot of people are claiming that Vyvanse does not last for the 12 hr period that it claims to (more like 6-8hrs). I think it is a selling tactic. This is aggravating because ignorant doctors won’t prescribe the right dosage or administration.

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    in reply to: Worst advice – and from a therapist, no less. #121912

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    Thanks I have some coverage $500 per year allocated for psychologist or therapist. so I would like to see a psychologist (since coaches aren’t covered-they really should be)

    I would like to go back to school and become a psychologist (specializing in ADHD-specifically Adult). I also believe there are still a lot of adults out there suffering with addictions and other impairments that aren’t diagnose and/or treated, that don’t understand that they can increase the quality of life. If I could get my degrees on line I would in a heartbeat.

     

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    in reply to: Here we go #121911

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    @kc5jck

    Hi I thought I would post this back in this thread in case anyone was searching for an experience on Vyvanse. and thanks for asking.

    Well the first day. I think I kind of got a high from it during “the peak” (starting at 20mg). I felt more relaxed, more comfortable in a social situation and my mood was stablized. I took it at 10am because I had an event in the evening and I didn’t want to “crash” during it. I found that I peaked around 1pm ish and gradually came down throughout the afternoon. I was working on my graphic design stuff and doing housework. I got my dishes done in a half an hour (rather than the 3 hrs it usually takes me) but like around 4pm I was doing all the “dumb stuff” again. Forgetting why I went upstairs and bashing my head on open cupboard door etc..and the side effect was headache in the afternoon. my appetite was a little suppressed. but I just found I wanted to eat at different times.

    The second day I took it earlier because I didn’t have any obligations in the evening. so it was all the same and everything was just shifted according to the time. so I started at 7:30 so I “peaked” at around 10:30 and started becoming useless at like 2pm. I didn’t get the high that I got on the first day. but had a clarity for a few hours that petered out during the afternoon (in waves of clarity and fog). I was asleep by 8:30pm and I would like to fall asleep at like 10:30 or 11pm.

    Now this really concerns me because all I have read says that Vyvanse is suppose to be effective for like 12 hours. and even if it was effective for that time it still isn’t enough for my life right now.

    I think the times that are toughest for me are the morning from 6:30 to 8:30 (morning routine, catching bus. etc) and 5:30-7:30 (Evening routine-dinner and bedtime routine). Not to mention that i need to be extremely productive during the day (work, kids, errands and housework) and I may have to do extra work in the evening or even finally be able to work on my hobbies. So what the hell am I going to do? I hope it is a dose thing. that maybe it will have a better duration of effectiveness when I find my right dose. I am suppose to go up to 30mg in a few days. Then 7 days after that to 40mg. I was prescribed 2 tablet of 20mg for that. I was trying to see if I could stagger those in the morning like say take one at 6:30 and one at like 11:30. I was trying to find out if anyone has done this or if this is safe. I have an appointment to see my Psychiatrist in a week and a half. but I remember mentioning to him that 12 hrs just isn’t enough for my life right now. And i really dont think he believes in “a booster” in the afternoon.

    I can’t have coffee or caffeine it makes my heart race. Does anyone know if Decaf coffee is okay? I loooove the taste of coffee and really not a fan of tea of any kind. I know decaf still has caffeine in it.

    When I fell asleep it has been the most peaceful sleep I have had in a long time.

     

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    in reply to: You'll grow out of it…. #121909

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    Yep I was diagnosed in the 80’s and had no idea that my suffering in Adulthood was due to ADD.  I thought I was lazy and I was being punished for my horrible decisions in life. I had never even considered it a possibility (probably because I thought I would “grow out of it”. And the therapists and psychologists I saw in the 90’s, 00’s or the 10’s, never considered either. It was me who stumbled upon it when I was researching my son’s condition. Big “AHA” moment.

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    in reply to: What documentation for my employer? #121889

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    Be careful with this read the forum for “have you ever asked for accommodation at work..”

    Some people have had unfavorable results.

    They may not be able to fire you for having it. But in all ignorance, Bosses can find other ways to “let you go”

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    in reply to: Finally off nicotine after 28-1/2 years!!! #121887

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    Yay, I quit for good too. back in March. I got really sick (with the flu-in my lungs) I honestly though that this is what dying feels like. If I ever got lung cancer that is what it would be like. Have not smoked a cigarette since. I thought I would never be able to do it, especially since my hubby still does. but it doesn’t bother me anymore. It’s funny because he is 34 and he lies to his family. They think he is smoke free. I am so glad I don’t have that burden anymore.

    I do however miss inhaling the smoke. just at that right peaceful time. but I don’t believe I am addicted to the nicotine anymore. I do feel the medication is relieving those urges.

    Good for you. If you need any support. PM me.

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    in reply to: i need help to feel move closer to being teacher being taught #121886

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    First are you diagnosed and on meds? I am currently in search of the perfect therapist for Adult ADD

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    in reply to: School – Verbal Abuse by Teachers! #121883

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    It is absolutely disgusting the way that some teacher are towards students.

    I was told by my grade 8 music teacher that I will never be a musician (in front of the class). I have a real talent and love for music. I stopped doing anything musical. Until the last ten years, I love it. I could have been real successful if I had pursued it.

    I had another teacher interrupt me during my presentation (again in front of the class). That “This is really boring”. I was reading it and read the same lines over again.

    Earlier in this post:

    There is no extra help for the special kids. It just doesn’t happen. IEPs? Wheelchairs will get you one as will autism. Where I am, ADD is NOT considered ‘serious’ enough to warrant any special considerations other than not loading too many of them on a teacher who already has ‘real’ special needs students.

    That is why my son is being improperly assessed for Asperger’s. Because everyone sees that he functions differently than everyone else. and this is the only thing they assess for at school. because he can get help with Autism but not ADHD. It is absolutely bullshit. and I guarantee a lot more kids suffer from ADHD than autism. I am scared for my son and what school is going to be like for him.

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