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ADHDplus – you saying “I know what information to hunt for and I go on an expedition to find it” reminds me of when I was in elementary. I never read of course (since took forever and we all know why) but every novel study we did (we had about 4 in a semester) I aced without reading a single novel. I knew what the teachers wanted, I knew how to find it and got my good mark. Only work in elementary mind you hahaha

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Grandmairisleanna – Your comment “you look like you where miles a way” reminds me of a funny story…

I used to work with my mom in housekeeping and one day decided I would scare her (I always played jokes on her) and I hid in the closet and of course she opened it I jumped out etc etc. So later that day we were in the bathroom together and I was waaaaaaaaaaaaay off in thought (as usual, no wonder eh?) and she saw that. She was standing not even a foot away and yelled “BOO” and I jumped around screaming and flailing my arms. She laughed her head off. I thought it was quite silly that I could be so lost in thought (about nothing as always haha) that she could scare me that easy. But she knows the way I am and took the opportunity! haahahaha

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Larynxa – I will keep a journal, thats a great idea, and you are right about the diabetes or thyroid condition!

Nellie – I will follow your advice and do whats best for me even if I have to keep it to myself. At least I have you bunch of folk I can share with and have some connection to!

Jlmccarthy – That is a very interesting story about your grandmother! It is a shame that it took so long to get the diagnosis! I now hope her last days on this earth are now fullfilling and to their very best!

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Thanks for the link Nellie!

John – Yeah I am a little worried if my kids do have ADD due to what the cost may be (two kids and myself eeek! Nevermind the things my husband would have to put up with haha). I have talked to the teacher about how I am diagnosed with it and to keep a good on my my son (he is in kindergarden, daughter is only 4). I will be able to tell with report cards yes, but I on the other hand was always top of my class in elementary school because I had my set routine. I finished my work way before everyone else (of course my teachers always remarked on how messy my writing was) but my grades were good until I hit highschool and was introduced to REAL homework. I just slipped under the door with the bare minimum in highschool and college. I believe in you standing up for whats right and against what is unjust. I have came across many teachers who sadly do single out students. Actually in highschool I was one of them…. I never did my homework and my history teacher gave us it every night. Everyday he would walk around and see who did it. One day he was up at the front of the class just calling out and asking who had done it. When I said mine wasnt done he looked at me and said “Dont your parents care that your homework isnt done? Do you even care??”. That stung a bit, the rare times I DID do it he would have to come check and make a big deal about it. Good luck to you with your battle against the school!

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Ive never thought about that before! “When he sees how much better you are and learns about ADD alongside you…” I wish I knew this way before! That would of helped in many things before! Thanks!

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Thanks Dspicelady! You are right.

You know I was questioning if my uncle had it as well. I will do my best to educate him and maybe see if he himself will get checked.

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I guess my real question is, how can I make them understand? Have you had someone like this?

I dont like having to “prove” myself, and everything I try to say he (and im sure many others) justified it all! I just wish there was something I could do to show him, or anyone else I come across like this!

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I have my real name and my real picture. There are a lot of Carries in the world. I am from Canada, and there are a lot of Carries in Canada! I know of 6 others just in my area, Rockie Mountains of British Columbia! Others may not want their real name so dont put it. But I think just like the option of your name should should have the option to add where you are from (maybe you want to find others in your area like you, maybe not).

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hahahaha That was awesome! I LOVE youtube, yes, its very easy to get lost there hahaha

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Gracious!

Yeah thats EXACTLY how I feel too (naturally) hahaha Its is nice to find people who you can relate with, doesnt make you feel so bad about yourself eh?

Kazuo and agnoscet – I find it helps A LOT. The classical music that is. ELO is a good band, my husbands favorite hahaha I really like psy-trance too like Infected Mushroom, lots of different sounds and keeps my mind busy. Same with other bands like Mr.Bungle (VERY experimental), their songs range from jazz to metal all in one song. I love their transitions and how there are many genres in a song. Do you ever put a song on in the car to listen to and then get thinking and miss the whole song?? I do that ALL the time! I have to replay it like 3 times before I remember to LISTEN to it or try to at least hahaha

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Just looked up Erik Satie and that song! WOW! Love it! Thanks for sharing!

If you want a song that will take your imagination for a spin Khachaturian – masquerade waltz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2F-tIN3LS-4

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Whoops sorry, I didnt realize it was so long!!

And this website just told me to slow down, im going too fast since I tried to post this one right after hahaha thats so funny, I love it!

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When I read the only thing I found to hyper-focus me into it was classical music. Bach to be specific. I found other music to be too distracting, but Bach gets me right in! That music and finding a quiet corner to sit in the library away from everyone is what saved my life in college!

I finally read 3 novels for the first time in my life (each taking 7 hours to read and actually know whats going on), I had to turn on my Bach and if I was interrupted I was VERY VERY cranky because it takes so much for me to read.

I was lucky in elementary school. My grades were always very good since I work well with a set routine. I did my work very fast, was always done before everyone else, and did very well (besides the teachers saying I should put more effort and have neater writing). I was never called stupid, and everyone wanted to be my partner in projects because I was so creative and went over the top! Not until high school was I deemed “stupid”. It was a new school and so everyone assumed I was dumb to begin with, and my grades dropped (since homework was IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME!!). I couldnt figure out what was wrong. I was so smart (top of my class) in elementary and middle school (4.2 average), now BAM! My brain was gone! That was a real hit to my ego. I knew I was smart, but no one else did and I just couldn’t prove myself. All my homework I failed, all my tests I did well which luckily made me pass!

Going to college lots came easy to me, most was common sense and I excelled in those areas. As for studying, yeah right! I would hand in projects that were done at the last minute, getting an okay mark. But I ALWAYS KNEW if only I took more time on it! Why didnt I take the time! I would set the goal, but fail at it every time! And for the first time in my life I failed a class!! OUCH!! OUCH OUUUUCH!!! That one hurt A LOT! I had one chance left with a re-write…. And I had to study and study!! Luckily I discovered a way in my quiet corner, listening to Bach how to study and make it stick!! All I ever did in any of my class was doodle. It helped me focus… So I took all my notes and drew them out in an order and way I could remember! I would look at my cartoons which to everyone else looked like a HUGE mess and nothing, but they made sense to me and they worked! I now draw things I need to know, helps me. Using that I was able to pass. I JUST passed my college course, literally, just like I had JUST passed high school. I always felt I could do better though, like all of us here I guess, I always feel like the underachiever! I could have done more! Why didnt I spend more time!! Why, why why… Im so glad I know why I couldnt before!

I feel now that I can do anything! All the things I have dreamed of doing (I want to go back to school), I can now do! I will be able to focus!! All my unfinished ideas, cartoons, sketches, art work, everything, I will be able to do!! I really cant wait now! Well… Here I am rambling off, I dont remember where I was going with this.. dang it! haha

Oh yes! Finding out I have ADD has really helped my self-esteem, knowing “hey its not my fault, im not such a failure after all!” Since im 100% sure my dad has ADD (since we are the exact same) I want this to be a gift for him since it has hurt his self-esteem badly. My profile pic is of me and my dad, I just LOVE it, shows our true personalities hahaha anyways, sorry thats so scattered and long. I hope it made sense. Thats my lil story!! hahaha

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Love the posts!

Njadd, I think we all have to re-read things a million times! I too read them 3-4 times to try and get it all in! hahaha I find it helps a little bit if there are paragraphs then I can take a break then go back to what I was reading.

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Some funny OCD here. The psych nurse thought I may have it and was questioning that while my initial interview for ADD.

The silly things I do are on my stereo the sound has to end in 2, 4, 5, 8, or 0. Nothing else! My car clock has to be EXACLTY (or as close as I can) to 3mins ahead, my stove clock 10mins, and my bedroom clock 20mins. I am VERY fussy about the cleanliness of my food, if it hits the counter (which I bleach) I throw it out, or if I think some one has breathed on it, I wont eat it. At the grocery store all the items I put on the belt have to be in a certain order or I stress out. Actually getting groceries is a very stressful situation all together. Nevermind the order on the belt. But once the cashier rings them in my husband deals with them cause I just cant. And I dont like dust, or flaky dry skin floating around (I work in geriatric care, and the skin gets quite dry if they have no lotion) so I hold my breath or gag.

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