[Robbo]

I’ve decided to give myself a break, that’s sort-of a big deal in this camp huh? Like nearly freaking Impossible for some. How do you give someone a break when you can’t stand the site of him in the mirror? sometimes I think I’m good looking, then I realize I’ve got a total dork staring back at me, with a silly grin… Mirrors are over-rated.

I do hereby giving myself permission to be a fool once in a while, it takes a lot of pressure off me.

Regardless, of all my “thinking” splattered all over this web site, I’m going ahead and not beating myself up for making a silly 6 hour rule for myself. That’s kinda like asking a little mini dog not to bark at giant strangers. (everyone is giant when you’re a scared little mini dog) So I’m revising my new self imposed rules. The rest still apply. I’m undoing that self imposed 6 hour rule.

I’ll just wait a good and long time before I post any of the larger ones.

Better huh?

Slap! Slap!

Can I get an extra high five for not posting any gigantic enormous never-ending long drawn out n covered every subject under the sun fifty million thousand word long, um, rantings/rambling posts? In the last couple days… mostly. Unless I forgot one. Hmmm.

All done.

I could use a “****Big Grin****, and a couple ****atta boy!****’s.

Slap!

Slap! Slap!

Got encouragement?

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

>><Is there a difference in the dosage between Adderall and Ritalin. I’ve read that there is a difference between Concerta and Ritalin http://www.addadhdblog.com/concerta-getting-the-right-dose/comment-page-7/#comment-446173 . >><

Looks like a good link to check out, I took a glance. I wish I could just sit and read on this site more… and that one, n the other. My reading skills are getting better because I don’t want to suffer as much from ADHD. Sipping and not drinking too much of plain ol coffee helps me a lot.

nex time.

I hope no-dopamine is doing well. Hoping she is doing well helps her if ya believe in that sorta thing.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

The music almost never stops in my apartment. Including the 2 speakers on the TV and the BIG BASS amp in place of the sub-woofer there are 10 speakers, all the way around the living room. The sweet spot is about 3 to 5 feet in front of the amp for my guitar. That’s speaker # 11. It’s a new apt. so the double windows, good insulation, and only one neighbor who likes my music and is a sweetheart lets me blast it loud when a great song comes on. I have almost 60 different playlist in my itunes program. Almost every kind of music. It’s Neil Young, “Southern Man” right now. He rocks!

How long, how long….

I’m partial to the heavy metal, there’s even heavy metal thrash gospel music mixed into a few playlists. (google Project 86) heavy thrashin gospel music. Ya can’t actually tell it’s gospel music cuz they’re screamin the lyrics n sound demonic.

I wonder why people call me “quirkey’?

AC/DC is the best to jam along with, only about 5 chords!

The Doors, “Soul Kitchen” is my favorite song to sing (and scream) along with. The stereo is louder than I can scream so it works great.

“let me sleep all night in your soul kitchen” -Jim Morrison-

I’ve been nursiing a cup of half decaf n lot’s of milk all day, calms me down. Almost done. Poor mans Ritalin.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

Yep, not the mean kind of shame, I get it. I was too afraid to run over his tiny feet rollin around outside, especially in the 300 lbs power chair. I miss the way he would nuzzle under my underarm when I was lounging on the couch. Rubbin his head against my chest almost like a cat.

I’ll work on finding a pet, even cats gotta be on a leash here!, dumb, huh?. I really considered getting a bearded dragon years ago. They have real personality. You can bob your head just to say “Wsup man?” I can’t remember what it means to lift one of the front legs. Something between “screw you” and “feed me some crickets now, dick head!”, my pets are required to have a good sense of humor.

I’m gonna go check out the pet store… BBL

Thanks for the encouragement/idea.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

Good one!

This page reads like the transcript of an ADHD “can a werms” support group. All I gotta do is remember to click on favorites, come back, follow directions and heck, my apartment may end up clean. Cleaner… CleaneR is good enough.

Checkbook is still missing, I think it escaped with my last grocery bag full of paper to be recycled… time to keep that bag somewhere besides right next to my desk where things like checkbooks can fall into it, huh?

Lot’s of little solutions add up to success. That’s what ya mean huh?

Hmmm sounds so dang easy….

Yeah but… Yeah but… repeat…

No!, I’ll do that 5 min. job n ignore the yeah butts.

Thanks gang.

And now I’ll sit here and pick my nose. (jus joken)

I’ll just get that good one in the left side… Ah crap, I just trimmed my fingernails.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

Was, he showed up a couple weeks after the 4th of july. A pup, very easy to house train, smart. The little tike could read my mind. I put up flyers looking for his owner, or his home. We have strict rules about pets here, he didn’t need a leash to be good. So I found him a new home. Luckily it was with another mini booger just like him, the two of em hit it off instantly. It killed me to give him away, stole my heart in a matter of two or three weeks. OUCH!

That was about 2 years ago. So it’s just a cool memory now. One of the best roommates I’ve ever had Too bad ya can’t train the people ya live with huh?

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

<<>”A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, and die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.” – Robert Heinlein <<>

I don’t know why, but I like this one more than a lot of the rest. There are lot’s of jems on this thread though.

Imagine reading even 25% of what’s written on this site? Shoot you guy, why buy books? We’re creating our own solutions here.

I have that desiderata on the wall at my stove. My favorite place in my apartment. That’s were I create art, then eat it.

“Meds are for people with decent health care. Screw it!” Robbo

“I’m just the resident pig at totallyadd, digging up the truffles.” Robbo

I wanted to start a new thread about thinking positive, it’s already all over the place here, just gotta find it. (finding it is my new self appointed job here)

Bat’s in yer attic?

Got solutions?

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

Hey, I know… think positive! lol.

Yeah right! huh. I’m working on a larger post for this thread. gettin it rite.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

K, here’s the dope.

I started working on this some time yesterday/last night. A set of desired limits to impose on myself. In the Interest of becoming more functional here, and bringing more positive solution oriented posts here.

Rules/limitations for myself:

Length of posts, number of subjects/topics I talk about in a post, waiting at least 6 hours after I write one to think more about what to say, and to be clear before I post it.

I’m truly grateful for the patience of the folks that put up with me without being abusive, dismissive, and just mean spirited like I’ve experienced so much in life, and on the Internet MUCH more. Passive aggression sneaks out of me/us sometimes. It especially sucks when I don’t even know who I’m angry or aggressive with. Maybe that’s how my posts get so long. It doesn’t matter, I’m thinking more before posting now, taking my time, and not taking too much time out of my life.

Thank you community, the quality of my life is indeed improved by this web site, the people, the staff, and the human souls we all have inside. To me the soul is the good in us, the part that makes us human and uniquely special. I’m finding a better connection with mine here, and finding where I fit in this crazy world. Totallyadd is an important part of my spiritual path. It’s only one part. It’s no fun when what I say get’s interpreted as religious. But it won’t kill me. People got a right to call em like they see em. I have a place to talk about that stuff in my life already. A good phone call this morning reminded me of that.

So this post is just me realizing/discovering my place here, and also the parts of me that I don’t need to bring here. I have to define my role in any given social situation. Be true to myself, and not waste anyone else’s time in the process.

I just reached the size/length limit for my post.

later toematers. hehehe. funny new word huh?

Just what is a toemater? any guesses?, ideas? ***snicker***

Peace.

all be bok.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

I was talking about feeling some regret about some of my ranting and rambling, It’s not possible for us to delete our old posts from here. That’s part of the reason that no_dopamine left. Just one of the reasons she listed. I’m still a happy camper here. I just need to keep it under control and in perspective. Understand?, It’s kind of a way for me to self restrain myself from splattering gibberish all over this web site. I don’t mean to beat myself up, but even here. I can feel like an oddball.

It’s all good though. I’m doing okay.

Thanks – Slap!

PS, it’s a difficult self restraint thing to accomplish. So you may not have to hold your breath for long nellie.

Breath!, breath nellie!

Termiighty.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

I ain’t no termite is just a meaningless thing I came up with some time within the last couple years or so, it cracks me up. It’s fun to see how people react. Sometimes being a weirdo is great! I like it when people look at me like a dog with it’s head turned sideways, curious and sort-of amused/intrigued, and also a little confused/bewildered.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

Hey! I’ve come up with some new rules for myself to help me keep my posts shorter and more helpful. I’ll feel better, and get more answers to the questions I’ve asked. I don’t want to be part of the reason this site has gotten so giant and difficult to manage for the totallyadd staff. In about 6 or 8 hours I’ll post the rest of my new limitations for myself.

Go ahead, write “clap clap clap clap, yeah Robbo!, you’re so smart!, and cool man!”

or not, I’ll still be holding my arm up for a high five

N blow my own horn some.

hehe.

PS, now I don’t feel so bad about not being about to remove/delete older posts I wish I didn’t write here. I’ll be able to see progress, and other folks will see me becoming less crazy too. Cool huh? Go ahead, clap n cheer some more okay?

or not, it’s okay

hehe.

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

More funny stories please…

Anyone seen my checkbook? the cool thing is, I just finishing paying all my bills before it “got teleported” , I have more checks, I just don’t want to call the bank again to say I lost my checkbook in my apartment. One more dose of humility tomorrow when I call n solve that one, I only write checks for bills, so it’s a simple fix for the bank. I hope I don’t find it as soon as I finish the call. That one repeating scenario still kinda feels like a slug in the gut.

We get over it tho, huh?

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

I know how you feel about pictures of your “mess” MonkeyBarb, It’s humiliating. If you could do better you WOULD, you’d gladly do better huh?. I live in a small apartment complex with disabled and/or retired, low income folks. We use to have many (up to 5) inspections each year. It was harassment. Investors, property management, owners, and an apartment manager that had severe control issues, hated seniors, very abusive with most of us. She got fired after we got a lawyer from the Sentinal Project (good, human rights lawyers) here in ca. The inspections have toned way down. Our new apt. mgr.’s are much better. There is an inspection coming up at the end of the month. I’m a nervous wreck trying to find decent help getting my place organized, it is safe and sanitary, just cluttered. I can’t really afford it, but my credit is good, so I can get an ADD coach to help me get organized. That may be my only option. I’m not getting help with medication as soon as I need to. Just yet another support group. I’m posting on another thread about the medication dilemma/frustration. It feels like failure to get a coach… sorta embarrassing… pride sux.

Have you considered getting an ADD coach? is it an option for you? I’ve made some calls, but keep finding dead ends. I’m real close to having my cards payed off and it feels great to have em all down to zero at least once every few years or so. It sucks having to spend money for help with what most normal people have no problem doing.

I’m gonna print out some of the practical, non medication advice about getting organized from these pages. Somehow, having it on paper helps more. As long as I keep it handy, not lost. yeah right, huh? I gotta try… Not giving up is so dang hard sometimes.

PS, I don’t know why, but I always get a kick out of your name and picture, it just cracks me up. (in a good way) Maybe because some of us seem to have brains like a monkey (hopping all over the place, into everything, never slowing down)… does that make sense? hehe. The look on the dogs face is priceless too. He looks like he knows my pain…

Got banana’s?

Gone banana’s? hehe, I’m getting there. Already there, actually… I don’t like it there!

REPORT ABUSE

[Robbo]

Cool links, I’m gonna be surfing around the net on all the other subjects besides ADHD, Those Allen Watts ones are funny. The Zen stuff mellows me out, it doesn’t matter why…

I’m gonna take a vacation from analyzing, figuring this can u werms out. I gotta spend more energy keeping track of all the different surprises the health care I get keeps throwing at me. Hope, no hope, back n forth. Bounce off walls… repeat. I never expected to find out there actually is an ADHD support group today. I hope it’s real. The ADD coach I called last week called me back, she’s on the east coast, lol. Another person I talked to about a ADD support group said “people haven’t been showing up so I gave it up” I said “and if they did show up they were 45 minutes late huh?” she laughed, said yep, sorry. Two months ago the psychiatrist said “maybe 4 or 5 months” I though she might be joking. Today the new social worker say Maybe 5 or 6, Big maybe.

I’m just gonna sit back and laugh at my life a little, then get back on the bull. This ain’t my first rodeo.

youtube is a real time theif! huh? Kinda like this place.

That “what is time” link cracked me up!

.

.

It’s time for me ta take a break from here now

and it’s time to take a break from me here

REPORT ABUSE

[Author]

Posts